Not My Will

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I dated a Polish boyfriend when I was at university. After we both started working, he began to hint at rings. I felt too young to get married, and also had reservations about marrying him. Though he was a lovely person and would make a great husband, I felt in my heart that we were not meant to be. So I ended the relationship. It took a few attempts. Breaking up is never easy, especially when there is no third party involved.

In ending the relationship when I did, I freed us both to meet our respective long-term partners. He met and married a beautiful woman. It took me three years to meet my husband. By this time I really wanted to be married, and have a family. My clock is ticking people, I’m halfway to thirty! Please! Only one man out of the whole world, surely that is not such a great request! It was only after pleading on my knees, that I finally came to a place of calm submission. Not my will but thine be done. Those words and prayer did not come easily. Not at all. And soon after, my husband-to-be and I started a relationship, and married soon after.

Sometimes we have to give up something to be open to receiving something better. And to have the spirit – not my will but thine be done. A prayer that goes against human nature, and all that our flesh would be.

I acted on kind feedback from others yesterday, and bought a new book!

Happy reading to me 🙂

7 thoughts on “Not My Will

      1. Yes, that’s exactly the point. Meanwhile I am that far that I can hang in there a lot better, since I experienced the blessing after so many times. But… that’s our journey 😉

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  1. What an honest and open hearted post, Vonita. I was so touched by your openness and the heartbreaking decision you felt drawn to make about your relationship with the Polish chap…but even there, deep in your heart, you knew it did not feel right and for both your sakes, you broke it off and were being true to yourself. That is a brave and courageous thing to do and can never be easy…and now look where you both are…! I was amazed that you had already purchased The Power of Now. I think you will find it quite refreshing and enlightening…it is simply written but has deep and profound meaning. I will be interested in hearing what you think of the message in the book? The story of Eckhart Tolle’s own spiritual journey/ life story is fascinating too…how he suddenly became aware of just Being…Here…Now…Enjoy the book, my friend, and I am touched also that you decided to buy it. I do so hope it helps to balance and harmonise your Life a little…take good care, Hugs and Happy and Blessed days to come. : >)

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