Courage and Faith

July 31, 2018Vonita Leave a comment

It’s scary, it sure is. When the rug is pulled from under your feet. I flounder with my flailing arms, grasping for an anchor. Who will catch me, who will care? I throw the question to the air. But this I know and this I trust. I will be lifted to a higher ground. I walked in courage, I walked with faith. And courage and faith will see me right.

My Lord!

September 12, 2017September 13, 2017Vonita 14 Comments

I’ll follow the signs
Where they might lead
I’ll follow the light
Through a jumbled maze

I will trust in the source
That higher power
Of heaven and earth
And the universe

I will trust in grace
For this I know
My Lord loves me –
He loves me so!

Grey Clouds

May 6, 2017Vonita 7 Comments

Sometimes things happen for a reason

And we don’t always know how or why

Or even how it will end

Sometimes the world may seem against us

Or our family or friends

Or acquaintances

Sometimes we have no answer

And all we can do is trust

That behind every grey cloud

A bright sun is waiting to appear

More Trust

March 12, 2017Vonita 4 Comments

If the world be taken from me
And all I have is dust
I will pray on my knees
I will pray for more trust

To know you are my father
And I am your child
You will never forsake me
I’ll never run wild

I will pray for more joy
I will pray for more love
I will pray for your grace
And more trust from above

Prayer for Patience

March 11, 2017March 12, 2017Vonita 6 Comments

I am waiting for love

I am waiting for Thee

I am waiting for patience

I am waiting to see

What thou hast in store for me

What thou heart has planned

The depth of thy mercy

The grace from thy hand

I am waiting, dear Lord

Hear my soul prayer

Grant me thy vision

Lend me thy ear

So I could hear fully

And I could know trust

That thy way is best

I will wait if I must

Effortless Help

March 7, 2017Vonita 11 Comments

In days past, whenever I have asked for God’s help and help has appeared, it has always been an ‘effortless’ help.

Everything has just fallen so easily into place. Moving countries was effortless. Sure I had my part to play, had to pack everything up, and get organized, but the whole process was effortless. Work appeared, houses appeared, all the help we needed when we needed it, appeared. There was no struggle. There was no resistance.

The same when I met my husband. I prayed and prayed to meet one person in the world that would love me. And when it happened, it was effortless. I didn’t have to fight and scream and go through turmoil, it was just easy and peaceful. And effortless.

For a few years I have been feeling unsettled inside. Not knowing where to go or what to do. I have failed miserably at a few things I have attempted, had my self-esteem and confidence destroyed, and felt hopeless and even worthless.

But I realize, with God’s help the change that I need will happen, and it will happen effortlessly. I won’t need to jump through hoops, perform all manner of party tricks, or sell my soul for something to happen. It will just be. In God’s perfect time and way, and when it happens, it whatever way it manifests, I will be willing.

Worlds

February 12, 2017Vonita 4 Comments

My Heavenly Father

Has opened worlds for me

He will open more –

Trust, hope, faith

Not My Will

January 9, 2017Vonita 10 Comments

I started the day with a positive attitude.

And then the day happened.

Just one single interaction with someone and all my low self-esteem came gushing forth, insecurities and failures and non-growth, comparing myself to others and it is all getting old and I am not worthy and blah blah blah.

I will have faith.

I will trust.

I will pray for God’s power.

I will be willing.

Not my will, dear Lord, but thine be done.