Vonita is okay but she needs a lot of support. Yes because vonita’s brain doesn’t work as it should, and anything that can do wrong will go wrong. A deep thinker is required and vonita is not a deep thinker at all.
So I have to ask questions and lean on others for support, and even though I have tenacity there are limits to how far it can carry me. I make mistakes and often and yes I am soft however I have survived till now and I’m used to failing and getting back up again, and what is life trying to teach me?
I have no idea.
The sun woke me up, but I failed to find the light insight. Dark shadowed all the corners I could not see past dawn or day. I curled up tight and hid away, oh please can someone wave a wand? I wish away this pain and grief, this never-ending stinking well.
I tried to write poetry –
A word or rhyme or
Rhythm or song
Though all was black and no words would play
Hidden in rafters and kept at bay
So I teased them, I cajoled, I pled
Please words, don’t leave me, I need you
I need your comfort, your warmth, your truth
Eventually they heard they had no choice
But to tiptoe out and make themselves heard
Words you are my lover my friend my foe!
Wherever I am you follow, you go
Take my hand I offer it true
Words you are mine, all mine
There is so much to live for
So much to do
So much to strive for
So much for you
The world is your oyster
Cliche but it’s true!
“Money can’t buy happiness” they said
But in all that time of stress and strife
An income sure would help my life
So I lowered my head and did what I could
To gather some coins and reams of yarn
I knitted a scarf of grey and blue –
Money can’t buy happiness it’s true
Though it can pay rent and food and wool.
Oh that annoying rumbling
Intoxicating feeling of
Infatuation is eating me
Why does your absence hurt so much
Why do your eyes flicker through my mind
Why is my life filled with your void
Oh, for just one moment in time!
Wrapped up in our love
With nowhere to run
I dream of you
I desire you
You and me
My wish for 2019, happy new year everyone!
I’m here if you think of me
I’m here if you care
I desire you daily –
My nights filled with dreams
Reach out and touch me
My female awaits –
You are my destiny
My soul mate