Each day I longed to walk with you
To share each drop of finite time
Your hands your face your touch I feel
It’s written on my stolen heart
This heart of steel I thought I had
Is nothing more than molten stream
Of pain and hurt and loss and want
I empty all myself of you.
Cast my heart anew of gold.
Capture my dream
Vivid vibrant emotions of night
Where desires catch alight
Angers flare and tears fall and everyone
Even souls long gone are alive
Capture my dream
Before dawning reality
Descends and the illusion
Jagged edges slice our skin
While shining in the glistening sun
Our trust will be in vain dear friend
All hope will be undone
These jagged edges of our lives
Tattoo our hearts with scars
Slow years will pass until we see
Our scars are tapestried.
Clearly I was not meant for you
Clearly you were not meant for me
Clearly we were not meant to be
But oh my love I loved you so
You stole my heart
I loved you so.
She’s not gone it cannot be
Oh my mother don’t leave me
You birthed me loved me helped me grow
We argued fought but even so
You’re my mom you cannot go
From this realm, please say you won’t!
But now you’ve left I’m all alone
All alone I need my mom
I need my mom to care for me
I need my mom to help me be
She is gone I’m so alone.
Two words to break my world to crack the floor to rip the heart right out my chest.
Final. Absolute. It’s done.
I fall collapse into a heap I fall I roll into a ball.
No! It cannot be. And yet it is. I’m black I see black I hear black I’m lost within the void.
It’s so black my world is dead I cannot see. Nothing to hold. The emptiness devours me whole.
I’m so grateful for your love
I’m so grateful for your hand
I’m so glad you came along
Just when all my hope had gone
I’m so grateful for our life
And to ever be your wife
Nineteen years we have been blessed
Nineteen years, sweet companionship
Covered in dust
I have no say
Muddy anchors weigh me down
As I’m tethered
To the ground –
A black mood sours my frown
Things are ending, I can’t explain
Once bright sparks scattered in the dark
Lost the fun and without the feels
This new year is dead to some
One day one step at a time
Voids will fill