Headspace

Vonita

This past week I have found myself agreeing to do something that someone else wants me to do. It is a big thing I have to do, it is costing me (time, money and emotion), and I am resentful. It gets complicated. We don’t live in a solitary world. Sometimes our actions affect others. Sometimes we find ourselves in situations we never chose for ourselves. To have been true to myself and just said NO, would have led to implications on others. So I felt my responsibility, and have obliged.

But now I have a dark black shadow over me. My soul is telling me what it feels. There is no energy or excitement in what needs to be done. Just a feeling of resentment, and a manner of going through motions.

I haven’t been able to visit the WordPress reader this week. The energy from me is gone.

16 thoughts on “Headspace”

  5. Sometimes, we do things we don’t like. Try to look on the bright side if there is one, even if it’s only I’ll be done in 2 days. We’ll be waiting on here whenever you return 🙂

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    1. Thank you, Mandi, I’m here, just feeling not so great. Going to South Africa on Friday for a couple of weeks, and having just been away, it feels too much, I have so much work to do and not sure how I’m going to handle it all. I don’t want to leave my children and my life, and have another trip to pay for 💝

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      1. Wow, that would be very hard having already been away. And I don’t recall how old your kids are, but I’m sure leaving them for two-weeks would be stressful not to mention paying for another trip. Someway, I hope it works out for you. I will pray you are less stressed and find the answers you need.🙏🏻💕

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      2. Thank you, Mandi, they are 12 and 10, so not babies, but I am overloaded at work, spent money on my vacation so savings are low, I have no leave (am in negative leave), and am expected to drop everything and go back to South Africa because people want to see me there, and if I don’t then I will not hear the end of it. Basically pick up the tab for other people’s bad life decisions. Working this weekend to meet deadlines for tomorrow, and after that start more stressful work that is required by the time I fly on Friday! Thanks for reading my vent!

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