Six Months 

It took me six months to overcome my ‘sugar-in-tea’ addiction. I had tried before, but I hated the taste of unsweetened tea. Several attempts of cutting the sugar failed. Until one day I went cold turkey. I just decided. I’m doing it. Quitting the sugar. I craved it. I pleaded with myself. Please can I have sugar in my tea? Please?? No. I really want sugar. No.

After six months, unsweetened tea and coffee tasted normal. That was sixteen years ago. Now I cannot drink sweetened tea or coffee. It makes me want to gag.

In December I went cold turkey. I will overcome my latest addiction. I have cried and whined and hated myself and been through the rough. I figure I have another three months to go. I feel stronger than I did in January. Mid-February. I am still not there yet. But stronger. The energies will change. Worlds will shift. 

I did such a great job of cutting ties that the choice is no longer mine. There is nothing I can run back to. Even if I beg and plead and stand on my head.

Acceptance is the big new word. 

Three more months.

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24 thoughts on “Six Months 

    • It is a negative cycle I am trying to break, not so much worth it, as trying to get my sanity back, it is hard, but every day I am getting stronger. I have an addictive personality it seems. Thank you for your encouragement ❤

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  1. Personally, i think that once you decided to get rid of something (say a habit, an addiction, or special someone), it is always best to quit COLD TURKEY. I think withdrawal is just psychological and can be overcome. Because when you try quitting on something GRADUALLY, it’ll just prolong your agony, right?

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  2. Oh wow I know this feeling. Still after years I get that little tiny feeling but I never follow it anymore. So thankful for that. I love reading about your progress. I had a few minutes today so I wanted to visit your blog! Sending my love and encouragement to keep going. Happy for you! ❤

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  3. I am very proud of how you compared this to your sugar addiction. I also value you so much that I hope it will get easier to move forward. I liked the sense of humor in “even if I beg and plead and stand on my head.” You won’t, I believe in your confidence and inner strength, Vonita! xo

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    • I’ve already begged and pleaded and acted as a whack-a-mole i.e. reappear just to get knocked back down, a week ago I played my last card – said all I needed to say and even for me, it is enough. Time to move on. No more whack-a -mole.

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