I had a friend

We were friends for a long time 

But now the worlds have changed –

The skies above my eyes,

And whilst we may still be friends

The clouds are grey.

Pipe Dreams 

I was awake and dreaming my

Pipe dreams and then they 

Shattered and I was still

Awake and dreaming no

Longer dreams but a 

Nightmare.

My Fantasy Worlds

Have popped one by one 

Bubbles containing nothing 

But air and when they burst

There is nothing there 

Just a faint memory 

Of fantasy worlds

And stabs of 

Reality.

Shadowed Waters

Tight fingers 

Grab my neck 

I cannot move –

In an iron grip 

Shadowed waters

Pull me under 

I need!

Air

Color My Dreams

Gone are the days 

When my babies cried

Gone are the nights 

When we lay side by side

Gone is the laughter 

The joys and tears

Replaced with silence

And screaming fears

Our cherished life

Apart at the seams

Once filling our hearts 

Now colors my dreams

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Rainbows Through Rain


Laughter through sadness

Rainbows through rain 

Life through birthing 

Smiling through pain 

WW2

I have just completed ‘All The Light We Cannot See’ by Anthony Doerr, a book set in World War 2, and draws the reader in from a German perspective on the one side, as well as French on the other. 

My grandfather was seventeen when he joined the war. He was enlisted with his older brother. At some point they were captured in Italy, and he became a prisoner of war. We grew up knowing not to ask him about the war. It was a topic not to be spoken of. The only words he told me was that he would never refuse anyone a slice of bread if they were hungry, because he knows what real hunger feels like. After I was much older and after my grandmother passed away, he dusted off an old typewriter, and typed up some parts of his experience. He kept it very factual and to the point. Dates, locations, names of places. 

Except for the ending. After the war had ended he and his brother were waiting for the ship to take them home. They went with a friend to Scotland. And it was there that he would meet the most beautiful girl who would become his wife. They would celebrate fifty years of marriage, 3 children and 4 grandchildren.

My grandparents would not have met if there had been no war. I would not be here. Or my children. History opens to the future. In darkness, there is light we cannot see.

All The Light We Cannot See

It has indeed taken me over a year to finish my Christmas gift of 2015, ‘All The Light We Cannot See’ by Anthony Doerr. After a few slow starts and false starts of other books, it is done. And what I can say is this is one of the best adult books I have read. Something happened around the midway mark. The book reeled me in, and I couldn’t put it down. Yesterday I read the last 200 pages. I read until it was finished. That makes it a winner.

About the book (no spoilers), it is set in WW2 and weaves a story between a German boy and blind French girl. The writing is vivid and rich and contains sections of beautiful prose. 

I have just woken up to it racing through my head, a story that stays with you. Harrowing and poignant. Truth and fantasy intertwined. A must read.

Biking the Bridge

 2016 contains one of my most memorable life moments. Biking the bridge, right up there with wedding days and babies being born, and citizenship ceremonies etc, it was one of those “I am biking the bridge” moments.

I also received a lovely surprise gift from Turkey, met Minnie Mouse at her residence in Disneyland, saw a rainbow at majestic Yosemite, spent time with my dad, hit the shopping sweet spot at a certain Sandton City, went to a wedding, and spent Christmas Day in a cabin on the beach with friends. And carrot salad -a South African classic.

My children remained healthy, I remained healthy and employed, and even though I endured a few humbling and cruel situations that were fairly *brutal*, I came through it relatively unscathed.

My hopes for 2017 is to move my life forward. In a positive way. To use those brutal, slay-me-to-the-core experiences to grow. To overcome. To be a better me.