We were friends for a long time
But now the worlds have changed –
The skies above my eyes,
And whilst we may still be friends
The clouds are grey.
We were friends for a long time
But now the worlds have changed –
The skies above my eyes,
And whilst we may still be friends
The clouds are grey.
I was awake and dreaming my
Pipe dreams and then they
Shattered and I was still
Awake and dreaming no
Longer dreams but a
Nightmare.
Have popped one by one
Bubbles containing nothing
But air and when they burst
There is nothing there
Just a faint memory
Of fantasy worlds
And stabs of
Reality.
Tight fingers
Grab my neck
I cannot move –
In an iron grip
Shadowed waters
Pull me under
I need!
Air
All we can do
Is welcome change
And prepare for it
So that when it happens
We are ready
Gone are the days
When my babies cried
Gone are the nights
When we lay side by side
Gone is the laughter
The joys and tears
Replaced with silence
And screaming fears
Our cherished life
Apart at the seams
Once filling our hearts
Now colors my dreams
I have just completed ‘All The Light We Cannot See’ by Anthony Doerr, a book set in World War 2, and draws the reader in from a German perspective on the one side, as well as French on the other.
My grandfather was seventeen when he joined the war. He was enlisted with his older brother. At some point they were captured in Italy, and he became a prisoner of war. We grew up knowing not to ask him about the war. It was a topic not to be spoken of. The only words he told me was that he would never refuse anyone a slice of bread if they were hungry, because he knows what real hunger feels like. After I was much older and after my grandmother passed away, he dusted off an old typewriter, and typed up some parts of his experience. He kept it very factual and to the point. Dates, locations, names of places.
Except for the ending. After the war had ended he and his brother were waiting for the ship to take them home. They went with a friend to Scotland. And it was there that he would meet the most beautiful girl who would become his wife. They would celebrate fifty years of marriage, 3 children and 4 grandchildren.
My grandparents would not have met if there had been no war. I would not be here. Or my children. History opens to the future. In darkness, there is light we cannot see.
It has indeed taken me over a year to finish my Christmas gift of 2015, ‘All The Light We Cannot See’ by Anthony Doerr. After a few slow starts and false starts of other books, it is done. And what I can say is this is one of the best adult books I have read. Something happened around the midway mark. The book reeled me in, and I couldn’t put it down. Yesterday I read the last 200 pages. I read until it was finished. That makes it a winner.
About the book (no spoilers), it is set in WW2 and weaves a story between a German boy and blind French girl. The writing is vivid and rich and contains sections of beautiful prose.
I have just woken up to it racing through my head, a story that stays with you. Harrowing and poignant. Truth and fantasy intertwined. A must read.
2016 contains one of my most memorable life moments. Biking the bridge, right up there with wedding days and babies being born, and citizenship ceremonies etc, it was one of those “I am biking the bridge” moments.
I also received a lovely surprise gift from Turkey, met Minnie Mouse at her residence in Disneyland, saw a rainbow at majestic Yosemite, spent time with my dad, hit the shopping sweet spot at a certain Sandton City, went to a wedding, and spent Christmas Day in a cabin on the beach with friends. And carrot salad -a South African classic.
My children remained healthy, I remained healthy and employed, and even though I endured a few humbling and cruel situations that were fairly *brutal*, I came through it relatively unscathed.
My hopes for 2017 is to move my life forward. In a positive way. To use those brutal, slay-me-to-the-core experiences to grow. To overcome. To be a better me.