Delicate

April 5, 2017Vonita 10 Comments

My heart tears

For every whip

That lashed

Across tender

Skin

My eyes well

For every slice

That cut

Across delicate

Layers

I cry

For every time

I made myself

Worth less

Illusion

April 3, 2017Vonita 10 Comments

Without the magic
Of the highest highs
And the lowest lows
The waiting, anticipating,
Hoping, thrilling
To be remembered
To be kissed
To be loved
Each day morphs into night
Each night morphs into day
My life is without light
My heart is without hope
My flesh is without fantasy
And the most powerful magic is
Illusion

He’s Gone

April 3, 2017Vonita 3 Comments

He’s lost to me –

My heart is as empty as

An ever-expanding hole of

The blackest space

He is dead to me

And yet my mind cannot comprehend

My flesh cannot accept

My dreams cannot understand

That he is gone from me

And never coming back

infatuation

April 2, 2017Vonita 6 Comments

I miss many moments before I said too much, great poem by great author, please visit x

Scammed (nearly)

April 2, 2017Vonita 13 Comments

So Buddy and Molly are not joining our family, because there is no Buddy or Molly, I was nearly scammed. Fortunately my alarm bells rang soon enough to investigate more, and welcome to the world of pet scamming.

Lessons learnt, and I will be adopting from an animal shelter.

Buddy and Molly

April 1, 2017Vonita 28 Comments

My two new puppy dogs arriving next week 😍

Happy Pills

April 1, 2017Vonita 16 Comments

Day 10, I am hoping to stabilize and elevate my daily moods. Am still very despondent, and my mind obsessions are still playing out.

Am not sure how having a stable mood will affect my writing. For years I have been on an emotional rollercoaster, many downs and ‘very downs’, not many very highs, though sometimes I have been ‘okay’. The ‘very downs’ seemed to spark writing in me. But also perhaps contributed to ruminations, and the continual feeding of my unhealthy thought patterns.

This past week I had a small success at work. In amongst all my failures. I sold myself to a client who is needing assistance in another state. They have requested that I assist them from the 1 May. I may have oversold myself. Something that doesn’t happen very often!