Living with depression, what I’ve found is that small things can be triggers. Something external might happen that will affect my mood, my mood will sink, and the recovery time is long. My mood doesn’t automatically adjust upwards. It stays low. Not having a strong social system does not help. People need communities. And to belong. The past few days I’ve been thinking about my will to live. Wishing myself away. Except for my children. They need a mother. Maybe I’m not the best mother in the world, but I’m the only mother they have. I find solace in poetry. I’ve been reading poetry in the WordPress reader. Everyone having something to say, and going through their own pain and life experiences.
Another sleepless night.