Fighting Depression 

Well, I’m not doing a very good job at fighting it. Always seem to wake up in a low mood, and stay in a low mood. I miss people and interaction. Extended family. My sister, nieces, my mother-in-law who passed but I still miss chatting to her, school friends, old friends who have moved away. 

I used to love visiting my mother-in-law and staying the night. She was very easy to chat to. I used to wonder who will I chat to when she is no longer here. 

I feel jealousy over a friend who moved to Sydney, and automatically included in a few social circles. My longing for social interaction is so strong. My low moods and awkward social skills probably don’t help. I have bad habits. Like staring at people, sometimes I fixate on something, and don’t realize I’m staring at that person. It happened the other day at the office. There were two people chatting beside me and I looked over at one of them. I didn’t realize I was staring until she called me out on it. I’m sorry, she said, are we talking too loud? Um, no. I turned back to my computer.

Anyway, I guess it is the season where many people feel some loss. 

30 thoughts on “Fighting Depression 

    1. Thanks, I’m on but in technical groups not really social. I do have a few friends, very thankful for them. My low mood sort of exacerbates negative thinking! 😊


  1. I’m so sorry, this season can make people feel very low. I’ve developed a weird anxiety issue recently, and I’m seeing a hypnotherapist at the moment. So it’s made me stop going out so much at the moment. One of the things I do, is I play computer games. It’s amazing how fast time goes when you’re playing a multi-player game. I also enjoy reading a book outside (when the weather permits). It might not be “social” but it does help me feel like I’m getting out in the fresh air, and that seems to make me feel a little better.
    It’s all an entirely personal thing though!

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  2. I feel anxiety sometimes…crszy levels of depression and evened that happens I decide to change my daily pattern by doing something I don’t usually do…it sometimes reinvigorates me…when that doesn’t work I play games on my PS4…RPGs mostly…so I can get lost in another world…when all else fails I write, but I guess everyone here does…take comfort in knowing you’re not the only one feeling this…we are here for you 🙂

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    1. Thank you so much, I really appreciate it 😊 don’t know if writing is a help or a curse, it can be both! It is a comfort to know the I am not the only one, not that we are wanting others to be feeling low either x


  3. I am sorry to hear that you feel so lonely. It is definitely the season that shows a bit stronger what we are missing in our lives. Perhaps it is the time to make a conscious change in our habits and fill life with what we want it to be filled! Just a thought…

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  4. I’m kind of in the same boat. After 3 years here in Tallahassee I still don’t have any real friends. Acquaintances, yes, but no one I can call at the last minute to go shopping or to a movie.

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    1. I’m sorry to hear that. My best friend has taken on a full time work role (including weekend work in retail), so hardly see her anymore, and Facebook updates of others don’t help. Being around people really lifts my spirits, but don’t get out much! My sister and aunt are together today, but they are in Johannesburg so not very close by! Xx

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      1. Studly has made friends through golf, and I keep hoping one or two of the golf wives might be potential friends, but they all
        seem to have their own rather closed social circles.

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      2. My husband cycles in a group on a Saturday morning, so by the time he gets back after five hours, he’s had all the exercise and social interaction he needs for a weekend! And seeing my friend being included in circles that I have never been included in, is upsetting for me (we go to the same church). I’m sorry to hear about the closed social circles too. One day when I’m in Florida I will say hello!

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  5. Solution I can try to give,
    1.Revise the best or romantic or fun moments of your past when you are on bed at night.
    2.Listen Music and Imagine as you are Most beatiful and talented actress people like you.
    3.Eat what you want tasty.
    4.Drink water more.
    5.Watch Emotional and serious movies,serials of people exploitation.
    6.Use pillows if you are alone for giving them a hug while sleeping.
    7.Feel the nature as you can by watching birds,animals,plants etc.
    I hope you “ll try these.

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  6. Sending love and light your way and lots of hugs. Not sure how things work in Aus, but maybe you could do some volunteer work at an old age home, like reading to the old folk or something. They are also very lonely as many have them don’t get visitors much. If you can lighten someone’s day it might help you. Good luck.

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  7. Have you thought about adopting a dog? Sometimes we have loads of love to give and we need someone to take all of that love, to share moments with us. I think its all about giving, you can feel you are making a difference, it gives you satisfaction and company. Once you feel you are important to someone its easier to feel better about yourself, and that in itself gets you closer to others. In fact there is a huge dog community, very open and receiving. I’m not gonna lie, it implies a LOT of effort and sacrifice, its not an easy task and its a decision that will affect your life for at least 10 years, but to me is worth it. Totally worth it.

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  8. I also suffer terribly from Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD).

    I hate that you’re going through this, but you have to let yourself know that it’s okay to take a break from life if you need to. Your mind is sick, and just because people can’t see it does not mean that you don’t need to heal. I would much rather have a broken arm than a seemingly never-ending bout of depression.

    As the seasons begin to change, there is a significant increase in my depression and anxiety.
    It’s completely normal if you deal with this, and you are not alone.

    And no, it’s not an imaginary, made up disorder as some people like to think it is. This is a real issue that should be talked about more instead of sitting dormant in the back of our minds.

    Keep fighting, love.
    -Capturing the Corners

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