Good and Bad

Vonita

In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “I Have Confidence in Me.”

There are a few things I am good at. I was good at mathematics at school. I loved it. I completed two years of math major at university, and received a degree in Computational & Applied Math. I love helping my children with their math homework. I love the numbers and patterns. I am a pattern type of person.

I am good at Application Development. But I am not confident. There is always something that has the power to trip me up. I have struggled with a few things when trying to integrate different systems. My husband can solve any problem. If you give my husband a problem he will solve it. I do not have that level of confidence. And it causes me a lot of stress and insecurity. I never considered myself a right-brained person. But perhaps I am, and that is why I stuggle so much with feelings of confidence. Currently I am on a sabbatical from work until the end of April. To have more time with my children, and to finish my book (it’s finished, hence my increased postings!)

I was terrible at languages at school. My language grades were always the lowest. With math the answer would be right or wrong. With literature I would have to guess what the poet meant when the poem was written. I hated having to decipher hidden meanings. Not my style. So I try and write simply. I lost all my confidence on a One-day poetry workshop. The more I learn about writing the less it makes me want to write. So decided in September I would write purely to comfort myself and to make myself happy. And am willing to share what I write. No more pressure than that.

Thank you for reading!

17 thoughts on “Good and Bad”

  2. What ann honest assessment of your strengths and confidence level. When you said you lost confidence in your writing after a day’s class, I thought that maybe you just learned how much more you need to know. That is a good thing. Keep enjoying what you’re doing.

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    1. It was more a feeling of reading ‘real’ poetry and thinking I can never write like that, I am wasting my time. I would like to know more of the different forms and correct technicalities of punctuation. But am aware that writing is an art, and if I try and force it, nothing will happen. With mathematics I can solve it straight away (no need to wait for inspiration), but with writing I have to wait for words to appear in my head and they either do or they don’t, but I can’t force the words to appear. If that makes any sense at all?

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  3. I used to love math and sciences…still good at them
    I just find math dry now and find more meaning in the written word if it makes sense :)))

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  5. I understand you complete;y – every time I think of writing a story, something inside of me screams all kinds of negative obscenities that I figure it is best to stick to poetry.

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  6. That is exactly the reason to write. Like most other skills, it only becomes better as you go, anyhow—but by then it really doesn’t matter, because you will have embraced it just for the fun and freedom it gives *you*.
    Onward and upward!
    Kathryn

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    1. Thank you! As soon as I feel increased pressure to improve my writing or feeling overwhelmed etc, I take a step back and remind myself I am only writing for myself! I recently rewrote an initial post of mine Raging Fire and named it New Life, as a comparison of how my writing has changed. Initially I had some ideas in my head, but seemed afraid to be using words, now it comes a bit easier to me!

      https://movingtowardsthelight.com/2015/03/29/new-life/

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