I entered through the doors
That would open for days to follow.
Days turned into years
A decade saw it through
I cried at times, and smiled as well.
I had fun and also
I didn’t.
I stood up for myself, and gave it my all.
I gave what I could.
For now, I will take and
Say thanks when I do.
I have changed my life before.
Bid farewell to the way things were.
I left my home, my friends, my family.
I left my job. I left my land. I left my country.
With faith that something better was in view.
With faith, I’m doing it all again.
I’m saying goodbye. To friends. To work.
To security.
I’m starting somewhere new.
The sky is the same shade of blue
The grass is the green it’s always been
The highs have made way for the low
At times I’ve had nowhere else to go
So I retreated inside
And allowed myself to grow
My wings strengthened
Increasing my resolve
And now when I lurch
Into a future unknown
I know the winds will carry me
I will not fail or fall
My skies are fetching me
I lift my arms
To go alone.
I used to think that for me to change
My environment would need to change
But now I know
With my own changing self
My environment will automatically change
Can sometimes lead to wide open worlds
Good, positive, exciting things
Please come my way
Lift me up
Carry my tears away
I know you will
I know you’re there
I’ve called your name
I’m out to meet you
Come here to stay
The best book I ever read was the Enchanted Wood by Enid Blyton. She spoilt reading for me because no other book could live up to Silky and Moon-Face and the unfortunately named Jo, Bessie and Fannie not forgetting cousin Dick.
I lived in the home of Moon-Face, could hear the clanging of Saucepan-Man, and could feel the soft, shining hair of Silky.
And I loved the worlds at the top of the tree. How they never stood still. Sometimes magical, sometimes scary, sometimes exciting, sometime peaceful, always moving, never standing still.
I think of the changing worlds of our life. The seasons that pass. And sometimes they are scary. And frightening. And exciting. And enchanted.
And hopefully, maybe, everything will be okay.
All we can do
Is welcome change
And prepare for it
So that when it happens
We are ready
For the past while I’ve been struggling with the idea of change. How to make a change. What change to make. How to open the right doors. Where to go. All of my attempts have failed. It has been distressing for me, and disheartening. My self-esteem has been low. My mood has been low. And then I realized this afternoon:
Change doesn’t have to be hard
I changed my life, my country, my job, my future all in one go, and the big thing at the time was:
It all fell into place
I didn’t have to jump through hoops, or do party tricks, or sell myself unnaturally, or bang my head against brick walls. I just allowed it to happen, and did what I needed to do when it needed to be done. It all worked out perfectly. A better country opened for my family and I, work opportunities, a new home, new friends, and it all resolved peacefully.
The world is filled with color. Embrace the color, and when change happens, embrace it. Trust in God to change our lives for the better. We are held in safe hands. We are safe.
Moving outwards
From circles of fire
Moving through
Flames that burn
Entering into
A new beginning
It is happening
It is time
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