Back Against Wall

No more could I do

No more could I bring

I brought the best of me

I gave it my all

No more could I do

It is what it is

My back touches the wall.

Loving You

A wish for you

A dream for me

I wish my love could be

Higher than the stars above

Whiter than the snow

Deeper than the roaring sea

So my feelings go

Everywhere I look for you

At every point I turn

I see your shining eyes

Looking back at me

I love you now

I love you then

I will always love you

So

Force Me Still

I played it safe

I stayed within

The confines of my

Battle lines

I never strayed

Nor looked behind

But onward marched ahead and

Straight

It all blew up, right in my face

My best laid plans laid naked down

It is it was it always will

Force me quiet, force me still.

I Need Rope

Simple rope made for the wall

I will braid it for strength

Reinforced with my will.

A simple hope to keep me alive

Infused with my breath

It will help me survive.

I see my fear, I can smell it’s scent.

I will not run I have nowhere to hide

I will work on my rope until

I can use it to climb.

I Need To Think

A gigantic wall is in front of me. Blocking my way. I need to get to the other side. I need to get to paradise.

I look behind and the earth has fallen away.

I look to the left, and as my heart sinks, I fear my right, knowing what to expect.

The sun beats me, as it gets hold of my skin. The crystal blue sky is beautiful and merciless with the absence of any cloud.

There is no shade.

Paradise is just past the wall. That gigantic barrier blocking my way.

And so I wonder. I question.

How do I get over it. I have no ladder. I cannot climb. My hands are small and I am not strong.

How do I get over it. While my skin burns and my heart races, I sit myself down.

I need to think.

Still Echoes

I dreamt of you

The times we shared

You’ve grown a beard

You’ve matured and aged

The years have been too long

But still the echoes of your voice

Haunt my darkest night

I dream of you

Still now I do

I loved you

Through and

Through

Forevermore

I’ll shine a light until I’m home

I’ll shine a light for you

And if you reach the door

Before I do

Please wait for me don’t go

I’ll hurry home I’ll run and fly

I’ll come straight back to you

For you are mine and I am yours

Forevermore so true.

Flotsam

I don’t feel so good

My heart is sore and my soul is

Bruised.

An empathy arises for the child within

I wrap my arms to protect her

Vulnerability

I feel lost

Floating along a turmoiled sea

Reaching for any flotsam passing by.

I am lost.

With only the blue sky to lead the way.

I don’t feel so good.

Sky High

Feel the fear and do it anyway

It’s okay

If you fail or if you fall

Get right up, stand up tall

Learn the lessons

All you can

Learn to fly

And you will soar

Sky high

Out of my Control

It’s out of my hands

There’s nothing I can do

But let myself go and slip

Into the gale force howling

Past my door.

I’ll let it bash me where it

Will.

My eyes are closed.

My hands are open.

It’s out of my control.