
No more could I do
No more could I bring
I brought the best of me
I gave it my all
No more could I do
It is what it is
My back touches the wall.

No more could I do
No more could I bring
I brought the best of me
I gave it my all
No more could I do
It is what it is
My back touches the wall.
A wish for you
A dream for me
I wish my love could be
Higher than the stars above
Whiter than the snow
Deeper than the roaring sea
So my feelings go
Everywhere I look for you
At every point I turn
I see your shining eyes
Looking back at me
I love you now
I love you then
I will always love you
So
I played it safe
I stayed within
The confines of my
Battle lines
I never strayed
Nor looked behind
But onward marched ahead and
Straight
It all blew up, right in my face
My best laid plans laid naked down
It is it was it always will
Force me quiet, force me still.

Simple rope made for the wall
I will braid it for strength
Reinforced with my will.
A simple hope to keep me alive
Infused with my breath
It will help me survive.
I see my fear, I can smell it’s scent.
I will not run I have nowhere to hide
I will work on my rope until
I can use it to climb.

A gigantic wall is in front of me. Blocking my way. I need to get to the other side. I need to get to paradise.
I look behind and the earth has fallen away.
I look to the left, and as my heart sinks, I fear my right, knowing what to expect.
The sun beats me, as it gets hold of my skin. The crystal blue sky is beautiful and merciless with the absence of any cloud.
There is no shade.
Paradise is just past the wall. That gigantic barrier blocking my way.
And so I wonder. I question.
How do I get over it. I have no ladder. I cannot climb. My hands are small and I am not strong.
How do I get over it. While my skin burns and my heart races, I sit myself down.
I need to think.
I dreamt of you
The times we shared
You’ve grown a beard
You’ve matured and aged
The years have been too long
But still the echoes of your voice
Haunt my darkest night
I dream of you
Still now I do
I loved you
Through and
Through

I’ll shine a light until I’m home
I’ll shine a light for you
And if you reach the door
Before I do
Please wait for me don’t go
I’ll hurry home I’ll run and fly
I’ll come straight back to you
For you are mine and I am yours
Forevermore so true.

I don’t feel so good
My heart is sore and my soul is
Bruised.
An empathy arises for the child within
I wrap my arms to protect her
Vulnerability
I feel lost
Floating along a turmoiled sea
Reaching for any flotsam passing by.
I am lost.
With only the blue sky to lead the way.
I don’t feel so good.
Feel the fear and do it anyway
It’s okay
If you fail or if you fall
Get right up, stand up tall
Learn the lessons
All you can
Learn to fly
And you will soar
Sky high
It’s out of my hands
There’s nothing I can do
But let myself go and slip
Into the gale force howling
Past my door.
I’ll let it bash me where it
Will.
My eyes are closed.
My hands are open.
It’s out of my control.