Woman 

A woman took my hand. Wrapping her arms around me I could feel her soft skin, and delicately perfumed scent. Her long straight hair brushed over my arm as she leaned over to plant a kiss on my cheek. So unexpectedly. So very different to a man. So gentle and enticing. I lost my breath.

Aftermath

A thick heavy black soot settles over the landscape that was previously filled with roses and petals and flowers and all of nature’s beauty, filling the air with their scent and igniting the senses with their glory, all being replaced and suffocated with dead grey ash. Where are the roses? They have died.

Volcano

Pressure building

Underneath unseen

Boiling heating

Festering 

Lightning strikes

Thunder claps

The boiling wound

Explodes 

Jealousy

Last night I failed 

I lost control of all my projected composure

My pain points were pressed so deeply 

Pressing into my very being

My heart, my soul, my most intimate self

That I lost all rational thought or reason 

I transported fully into a realm of negative emotion 

Of jealousy so pure and unrefined 

Of jealousy in its rawest form

Overcoming every part of me –

I snapped 

(And it wasn’t pretty)

Thinking..

Why do some relationships work, and others don’t? What makes people connect, or not? How does the spark take flame, and not flicker and die?

I wish I knew. I wish there was a soul to match my own.

It is Time

Moving outwards

From circles of fire 

Moving through 

Flames that burn 

Entering into 

A new beginning 

It is happening 

It is time 

Feeling Pain

It took three weeks to stop feeling pain when breastfeeding my firstborn. It was so clear in my mind, he was born on a Friday, and the Friday three weeks after I had no pain. After that it was smooth sailing. One of the best feelings for a woman is breastfeeding. But only after the initial pain has passed.

Currently I am feeling pain. It has been a pain for two months and counting. An emotional pain. It appears in my mind at least every day. One day it will pass. And then I  will be on the other side. There will be no more pain. But today, it is still there. 

Waiting to be healed. Waiting to reach the other side.