Encouraged

February 25, 2017February 25, 2017Vonita 12 Comments

It is impossible not to feel encouraged and hopeful when surrounded by so much love. Yesterday, having a bad day and being tired at work, a colleague offered assistance via another colleague who saw that I was struggling with something, and my manager offered for me to go home early. And then So many kind, wonderful, caring, amazing friends here at WordPress, I can feel the love and care, and it is so much needed and appreciated. And it has definitely encouraged.

So to all my friends, near or far, thank you! You mean the world 💕🌸💕

Another Sleepless Night

February 25, 2017Vonita 65 Comments

Living with depression, what I’ve found is that small things can be triggers. Something external might happen that will affect my mood, my mood will sink, and the recovery time is long. My mood doesn’t automatically adjust upwards. It stays low. Not having a strong social system does not help. People need communities. And to belong. The past few days I’ve been thinking about my will to live. Wishing myself away. Except for my children. They need a mother. Maybe I’m not the best mother in the world, but I’m the only mother they have. I find solace in poetry. I’ve been reading poetry in the WordPress reader. Everyone having something to say, and going through their own pain and life experiences.

Another sleepless night.

Post!

February 24, 2017February 24, 2017Vonita 19 Comments

Look what arrived in the post today!

My new iPhone cover designed by my dear friend Erika Kind. Erika is always so amazing, helpful and supportive. A ray of light for me. Particularly today my mood is low, and tired because I am awake since 2am. So now I can carry Erika’s enthusiasm with me, and be reminded positivity!

My Zazzle Shop

I Still Call Australia Home

January 26, 2017January 26, 2017Vonita 2 Comments

Today we celebrate Australia 🇦🇺 Day. There is much to celebrate! Relative safety, sun, parks, beaches, transport, coffee. Work. Opportunity to grow. We made a decision ten years ago. To take up a challenge, and make Australia home. We did, and we have never looked back.

Thank you, Australia, we still call Australia home!

Narcissists

January 22, 2017January 22, 2017Vonita 26 Comments

Here’s the deal with narcissists. They are like set in cement, and never, ever change. It is all about them. Even when it is not about them, they make it about them. And if they feel criticized in any form or fashion, expect to be punished. In whatever form. Expect to be ignored and brushed aside. Because you are not worth anything. They are experts at manipulation and mask-wearing. The facade is everything. Even if they are caught red-handed, they will be annoyed if others do not believe their lies. Because how can others not believe what they say? Even if what they are saying is so ludicrous it would be evident to a three-year old. They will attempt to gas-light. May succeed. Because you will doubt your own sanity. They are over-the-top charmers. Their charm will intoxicate. Until the coin is flipped and their real self is revealed. Cold, callous, abrupt, dismissive, anything but charming. It is hard to be charming all the time. The facade saps energy. It will only be a matter of time before the real self emerges. Be warned. Be prepared. Take care. Take action and walk away.

Finally, how do you know when a narc is lying?

When his (her) lips are moving.

https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/through-the-looking-glass/201511/beware-the-charming-narcissist

Merry Christmas!

December 25, 2016Vonita 12 Comments

Christmas Memories

December 24, 2016Vonita 13 Comments

Memories are made up of times and places. People and faces. Gifts and giving.

I think back to a few of my Christmas’s and can recall where I spent them and with whom. Also marked by a few significant gifts received.

Here are a few that come to mind!

Aged 4 – Receiving my first-love doll (from my paternal grandparents)
Aged 5 – Old-fashioned radio from Santa

Aged 6- Red bicycle with a coin taped on it’s seat (it got stolen later on)

Aged 9 – Puzzle from my aunt in a triangle box

Aged 10 – Walkmans with boney m

Aged 13 – chocolate boxes from grandparents, and George Michael singing you’ve got to have Faith

Aged 20 – Receiving a necklace and mug from my polish boyfriend that now holds all our leftover coins (the year I was so in love, bless him) (also stolen)

Aged 22 – Gold cross from my father, the year my mother passed away (stolen)

Aged 36 – a silver necklace from my husband, the only piece of jewelry gifted to me from him (apart from my wedding rings)

Aged 37 – Pandora necklace from my sister, the year she spent Christmas in Sydney with us

Aged 41 – Book I’m still busy reading, All the light we cannot see