I Need To Think

August 11, 2018August 11, 2018Vonita 9 Comments

A gigantic wall is in front of me. Blocking my way. I need to get to the other side. I need to get to paradise.

I look behind and the earth has fallen away.

I look to the left, and as my heart sinks, I fear my right, knowing what to expect.

The sun beats me, as it gets hold of my skin. The crystal blue sky is beautiful and merciless with the absence of any cloud.

There is no shade.

Paradise is just past the wall. That gigantic barrier blocking my way.

And so I wonder. I question.

How do I get over it. I have no ladder. I cannot climb. My hands are small and I am not strong.

How do I get over it. While my skin burns and my heart races, I sit myself down.

I need to think.

Still Echoes

August 10, 2018Vonita 8 Comments

I dreamt of you

The times we shared

You’ve grown a beard

You’ve matured and aged

The years have been too long

But still the echoes of your voice

Haunt my darkest night

I dream of you

Still now I do

I loved you

Through and

Through

Forevermore

August 9, 2018Vonita 4 Comments

I’ll shine a light until I’m home

I’ll shine a light for you

And if you reach the door

Before I do

Please wait for me don’t go

I’ll hurry home I’ll run and fly

I’ll come straight back to you

For you are mine and I am yours

Forevermore so true.

Flotsam

August 9, 2018Vonita 1 Comment

I don’t feel so good

My heart is sore and my soul is

Bruised.

An empathy arises for the child within

I wrap my arms to protect her

Vulnerability

I feel lost

Floating along a turmoiled sea

Reaching for any flotsam passing by.

I am lost.

With only the blue sky to lead the way.

I don’t feel so good.

Sky High

August 2, 2018Vonita 9 Comments

Feel the fear and do it anyway

It’s okay

If you fail or if you fall

Get right up, stand up tall

Learn the lessons

All you can

Learn to fly

And you will soar

Sky high

Out of my Control

August 2, 2018Vonita 5 Comments

It’s out of my hands

There’s nothing I can do

But let myself go and slip

Into the gale force howling

Past my door.

I’ll let it bash me where it

Will.

My eyes are closed.

My hands are open.

It’s out of my control.

Believe

August 2, 2018Vonita 3 Comments

I believe in myself

My talents and my will

I believe in myself

My craft and my skill

I believe in my mind

My heart and my soul

I believe in myself

I can and I will

I won’t let me down

Through the night

Or the dawn

I will draw strength

From the deep endless well

Of courage and my grit

To live the best life

I was born to fulfill.

I Took A Risk

July 31, 2018Vonita Leave a comment

I took a risk and changed my world. I took a risk and stepped outside. I took a risk and all along, it seemed to be my honest prayer. The skies had cleared, the clouds were gone, for one brief time my heart felt strong. But just as soon as all was said, the clouds built up, so grey and dark. They threatened storms, they hung down low, I closed my eyes to make it go. The thunder stormed, the hailstones fell, all peace was gone, replaced by hell. But life is strange, we need the rain, if only to see for once the glorious bow. I took a risk and now it’s done. The door is closed, I must move on. There will be another, a door for me. There will be another, a golden key. So now dear friends, I lay my head, I will sleep for now, to gather strength. For strength I need to see ahead. I need all strength. I must be strong.

Courage and Faith

July 31, 2018Vonita Leave a comment

It’s scary, it sure is. When the rug is pulled from under your feet. I flounder with my flailing arms, grasping for an anchor. Who will catch me, who will care? I throw the question to the air. But this I know and this I trust. I will be lifted to a higher ground. I walked in courage, I walked with faith. And courage and faith will see me right.