Life

My soul is your breath

Breathed into me

My heart is your love

Beating inside of me

My spirit is a flame 

Of your eternal power 

My life is a moment

Of eternity

Victory

God loves you 

And He loves me 

His grace abounds 

Forgiveness free 

I hear His voice

I feel His touch

Joy overflows –

Sweet victory 

Remorse

I did something so terrible and shocking and inexplicable that I cannot even explain how or why or what I was thinking, except I wasn’t thinking, only driven by an emotion greater than myself, that I have no defense and the only bright part is:

I never killed anyone

(Or hurt a child, because that’s even worse than killing someone)

Woman 

A woman took my hand. Wrapping her arms around me I could feel her soft skin, and delicately perfumed scent. Her long straight hair brushed over my arm as she leaned over to plant a kiss on my cheek. So unexpectedly. So very different to a man. So gentle and enticing. I lost my breath.

Aftermath

A thick heavy black soot settles over the landscape that was previously filled with roses and petals and flowers and all of nature’s beauty, filling the air with their scent and igniting the senses with their glory, all being replaced and suffocated with dead grey ash. Where are the roses? They have died.

Volcano

Pressure building

Underneath unseen

Boiling heating

Festering 

Lightning strikes

Thunder claps

The boiling wound

Explodes 

Jealousy

Last night I failed 

I lost control of all my projected composure

My pain points were pressed so deeply 

Pressing into my very being

My heart, my soul, my most intimate self

That I lost all rational thought or reason 

I transported fully into a realm of negative emotion 

Of jealousy so pure and unrefined 

Of jealousy in its rawest form

Overcoming every part of me –

I snapped 

(And it wasn’t pretty)

Thinking..

Why do some relationships work, and others don’t? What makes people connect, or not? How does the spark take flame, and not flicker and die?

I wish I knew. I wish there was a soul to match my own.