Why can I not let go?

Question of the ages.

Because the smile is so flashy white.

Because the light shining, when it shines, is so dazzling bright that everything else pales in comparison.

So I hold out for those moments. Those brief periods of payoff when everything else is forgotten.

And then the tears. With the brutal dismissal. And would there be care or empathy or kindness? No. The light is off, and it may or may not be switched on again. Whenever. It is not about me.

And so the world revolves around the narc. Planet Narc. You either like it or you don’t.

In Hindsight

The good thing is:

It doesn’t matter what smart, sexy, super-intelligent, sassy comments I could have made, or how I could have responded.

Because you would still be you.

Glad

Day after day 

And night after night 

Waiting and hoping 

And biding my time 

I feel so glad

I am relieved 

That finally 

I can see 

The mask 

The face 

The smile 

So fake  

And I am glad

To have 

Escaped

I am free 

I am me 

And glad to be