Debris Be Gone

February 18, 2018February 18, 2018Vonita 18 Comments

I cleared the debris cluttering my life and as I stood back to examine the result I knew with certainty that yes, indeed, the path hidden beneath all the dead wood really would lead to an as yet undiscovered

Magical world

Well-Wishes I Wish

February 11, 2018Vonita 12 Comments

I only realized how toxic the environment was until I left after ten years of service without even a card to well-wish my days ahead.

Did I wish for a well-wish? I would have been touched by the gesture.

Give and Take

January 29, 2018February 10, 2018Vonita 5 Comments

I entered through the doors

That would open for days to follow.

Days turned into years

A decade saw it through

I cried at times, and smiled as well.

I had fun and also

I didn’t.

I stood up for myself, and gave it my all.

I gave what I could.

For now, I will take and

Say thanks when I do.

Changing Lives

January 29, 2018Vonita 10 Comments

I have changed my life before.

Bid farewell to the way things were.

I left my home, my friends, my family.

I left my job. I left my land. I left my country.

With faith that something better was in view.

With faith, I’m doing it all again.

I’m saying goodbye. To friends. To work.

To security.

I’m starting somewhere new.

A Breath of Air

December 29, 2017Vonita 16 Comments

I saw the morning sun reflected in the waves that rolled towards me.

I felt the strength of the rays as they landed on my delicate skin.

The salt exfoliated my toes and feet and legs and thighs.

I surrendered to the water’s might as it overtook my height.

I submerged and allowed the wave to wash over me.

Helpless I was at the mercy of a power greater than I.

I let go and when i resurfaced and could take another breathe,

I breathed and knew in that moment

That is all I need to do.

Happy

November 14, 2017Vonita 6 Comments

I am dragged from a

Bottomless ocean

To cough out thick

Slime-coated grunge

And as my body is purged

From a suffocating

Ribbon of weed –

I finally –

I finally am happy

Fill Your Life

October 10, 2017Vonita 5 Comments

Fill your life with beautiful things

With warmth and comfort and love and grace

Take an empty heart

And pour overflowing joy into its depth

Feel the sun

Embrace the moon

Dream sweet dreams

And Sing!

Songs of praise

Look Higher!

October 3, 2017Vonita 10 Comments

When surrounded by darkness

And we cannot see in front

Look Higher!

When distressed by others

And happiness is brief

Look Higher!

When discouraged by the way

And all our hope is lost

Look Higher!

We are life

We are joy

We are love

Hope!

October 1, 2017Vonita 13 Comments

It feels so good to be able to look back at the past six months, since March when I had an adverse reaction to a life situation, and I was finally able to say ‘Enough’. And so I went all out on making positive choices and change to my life. (Thank you Zoloft, Calm app, Toastmasters, diploma of Graphic Design).

And here I am. Something happened on Friday that would normally have been a major trigger for me. In previous days I would have been a hopeless mess, struggling to deal with my non-existent self-esteem, and placing everyone higher than myself.

I’ve had a passing thought this weekend, what about the trigger on Friday? Shouldn’t I be upset about it? Shouldn’t I be struggling to cope?

And yet all that happens, is that it is a passing thought. I can see clearly that when people don’t act in a way we wish them to act, it is sometimes doing us a great favor. We are being saved from further pain. I am able to move on quickly to the next happy thought. Something that is uplifting and positive. And that’s a wonderful, wonderful place to be in.

I have hope!