Not My Will

I started the day with a positive attitude. 

And then the day happened. 

Just one single interaction with someone and all my low self-esteem came gushing forth, insecurities and failures and non-growth, comparing myself to others and it is all getting old and I am not worthy and blah blah blah. 

I will have faith.

I will trust.

I will pray for God’s power.

I will be willing.

Not my will, dear Lord, but thine be done.

For Today

My heart is at rest

My troubles lifted

Burdens ceased

For today 

Joy, love and peace 

My banner shall be

Closer to Thee

Yesterday I took a moment, and read my posts of the past year.

A year of my life. A year of sharing. A year of growing and understanding.

Friendships made and lost. 

Tears and dreams. Disappointments and temptations.

Still struggling for victory. Still struggling  to overcome.

But I have been blessed. My family is safe. I have health. Sound mind. A home.

And I still have time and opportunity.

(Lead me, God, closer to Thee).

Morning Prayer

Hold me in your hands

Keep me safe in your care

Love me with your holiness 

Open the paths that lead me

Safely back to you 

Dead Doors

 

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Dead doors

Lead to dead paths

So I am closing all those doors

That keep me from being free

 I have faith that

A vibrant door

Will open and

Beckon me

Through 

 

I Will Trust 

Through cruel sorrows

Suffering and despair

I will trust 

When summer scorches

And rains begin to flood

I will trust 

When drowned by tears

And hearts are torn apart

I will trust

When night prevents 

The sun from shining 

I will trust 

We are created 

We are loved

I will trust 

Stepping Stones

Every step we take 

If taken in faith 

Will lead us to 

The other side –

It will happen

Just believe 

Where is God?


He’s in the flowers and the roses and the sunsets and the sunrises and the birds singing in the morning and in puppy dog eyes and in giant golden leaves.

And in hearts.