Why?

Remind me

Why I asked you to go

Why I asked you to say goodbye

Why I asked you to leave me alone

Remind me why 

And why, why, why

You happily obliged

Bad Obsession

Forget my previous poem

No contact sucks

I want contact

And a heart that is loved 

And new flesh fantasies

And new memories 

And I want contact 

Right here right now

With you

No Contact

A space to heal

Allows my heart 

To bleed in private 

My thoughts to roam unhindered 

My flesh to fantasize from afar

My memory to remember

Why I sought no contact 

In the first place

dead butterflies

how long will it take? 

to become whole again. 

for the pain to fade. 

for a heart to heal. 

how long will it take? 

before all hoping ends.

that we could still be.

how long will it take?

for butterflies to die

I Know

I know, I know, I know

That after my cravings have passed 

That after your sweet divine kisses have faded

That after I no longer ache for you 

Every single minute of every single day

That after I have no more words to write

After all this is past

I won’t want you 

Anymore

shut.it.down

while you are still alive

while you still breath and live and smile

i crave you 

it is over

shut it down.

Aching Thirst

I’ll crawl on my knees to get relief

A drop of water to relieve my aching thirst 

I’ll walk, I’ll run, I will swim 

I will meet you where you are 

A touch of your flesh

Is what I need

Wasted Love

My love was wasted 

With our first kiss

My love was wasted 

With the very next

My love was wasted 

Through all my tears

Through all your smiles

And all your charms

My love was wasted

Spent at your feet 

You walked over it all –

A wasted love 

Stay Away 

Even if I crawl on my knees

Beg with an outstretched hand

Even if I am overcome with raging desire

Surrounded with butterflies from

My head down to my toes

Please, I plead of you

In my temptation

Overpowered –

Please!

Stay away from

Me

Ghost Butterflies 

I tripped over all the butterflies fluttering within and without and as soft as they were, I wished them away, you and I are no more, and I love all that you were and all that you meant and all the passion and  anticipation and touch and it is time. I wave them all, I wave all those ghost butterflies away.