I feel sick to my core
When I remember your tender eyes
Your tender hands
Your kisses
Your smile
I feel sick to my core
Remembering places and feelings
Excitement
Pulsing
I cannot even understand
How you were never mine
How you loved but didn’t
How you ghosted every time
And even though I wish
I had never laid eyes on you
I wish more
That you could have loved me
I don’t understand
I cannot understand
That you didn’t
How could you have loved me
The way you did so fully
But not loved me?