Whole

I open my arms and allow the wind to lift me off my feet and fly me to worlds of love and worlds free of pain and worlds of healing and in that moment I am loved and accepted and passionate and alive and good enough and healed and whole

Someone New

Someone new

To light my fire

Someone new 

To spark the flame

Someone new 

To catch my eye

Someone new 

To be a friend

To be a lover 

To be a man

Someone new

Do you hear me?

Someone new

I call your name

Boredom 

I’ll try and write my boredom away

For I am not seeing guns ‘n roses tonight 

No rock concert for me no sirree

Just more of the same 

More of these walls 

And more of the 

Wails 

My life 

Is passing me by 

Bad Obsession

Forget my previous poem

No contact sucks

I want contact

And a heart that is loved 

And new flesh fantasies

And new memories 

And I want contact 

Right here right now

With you

No Contact

A space to heal

Allows my heart 

To bleed in private 

My thoughts to roam unhindered 

My flesh to fantasize from afar

My memory to remember

Why I sought no contact 

In the first place

Peace, Grace, Joy

Peace to flow over me 

Peace to calm my storms

Peace to hold me tight 

And peace to fill my poems 

Grace to keep me warm 

Grace to heal my pain 

Grace to fill my need 

Grace to shine through rain 

Joy to bring a smile

Joy to honor me 

Joy to hold my hand 

And keep me company 

Joy, grace and peace

Intertwined to deliver us 

Into liberty 

Hopeless

The thing with addiction is that

Without the boost to prop up 

And the after effects 

Stealing head space 

Life is a daily grind 

Boredom stares in the face 

Resentment of a life

Without the thrill –

Hopeless 
I

dead butterflies

how long will it take? 

to become whole again. 

for the pain to fade. 

for a heart to heal. 

how long will it take? 

before all hoping ends.

that we could still be.

how long will it take?

for butterflies to die