The Story about a Duck

There were two little children on a farm. They were surrounded by many animals. And chickens and ducks and pets. One day, the little boy was throwing stones. One of the stones hit a duck. The duck died while the sister looked on. The brother was too scared to tell his mother that he had killed the duck. So the sister hatched a plan. Don’t tell her. We can just say the duck died. The brother thought that was a good idea. And so that’s what they did.

The following Monday the sister told her brother to hand over his lunch money. He said no. Remember the duck, she replied. And so he handed it over. Same with her school bag. Carry my school bag for me. Carry it yourself, he told her. Remember the duck? He carried it for her.

Until he realized he could not go on. His sister was having all power over him. So he finally plucked up the courage and confessed to his mother. I killed the duck! he told her. His mother dealt with it, and it was over. No more power. No more having to hand over lunch money and carrying bags and being beholden.

And the next time his sister reminded him about the duck, he could tell her. It’s over, mother knows about the duck, I am free. 

Blessed Rest of Heart

We sometimes sing a hymn, the first verse goes as follows:

“Oh blessed rest of heart
From doubting fear and sin
A rest in Christ the risen Lord
Who sweetly reigns within”

This week I have been fighting inner demons, struggling to overcome, feeling weighed down, and impossible to live with, and to just be.

And then this afternoon we sang these beautiful words, and I could just put everything aside. I could just be at rest. A load was lifted off my shoulders.

We serve a living God, one who is so much higher than our thoughts and circumstances and experiences. He is above all these things, and He cares for us. He loves us. He loves us through our failures and shortcomings and temptations.

Tomorrow I might be weighed down all over again. But it is now Sunday evening Sydney time, and for the rest of day I will be at peace. At rest. A rest in Christ, the risen Lord, who sweetly reigns within.

Rules

Sometimes there are boundaries

Put in place to keep us safe

But it is human nature

To break those rules

And when we do

We have to

Suffer the

Fallout

I cried tears

I cried tears 

I did and I still do

I cried to others

I wailed and wept 

And still I went back for more

Just a touch of your hand

The light of your eyes

The charm of your smile

Had me everytime 

I cannot imagine

Cannot even think

Of a life with you 

Not in it 

Peace as Power


Peace flow over me

Peace from heaven above

Peace to soothe my aching soul 

Peace as a gentle dove

Power to gain the victory

Power to win the fight

Power as the strength we need

Power to lead us into light 

hearts are made for breaking 

My heart smashed 

Against the floor

Silence shattered 

As my soul was dragged

Through 

Scattered

Splintered

Ruins 

I want my MIL

She died and I want her back. My beautiful mother-in-law who loved and accepted me, we had the most fantastic chats, and I had the best mother-in-law.

 A husband is always good in his place, but sometimes a girl needs a mother-in-law.

My Biggest Remorse 

In all our time together, our visits, our moments, our us and you and me and us, I never opened the door to greet you while naked in a bathrobe. Because being naked in a bathrobe would have been a great welcome and why I didn’t do that I don’t know. And I wish I could do it now, and you are at guns ‘n roses and I am wishing about bathrobes and nakedness and you and me. And it is over.