Secret Message

For one day only
I will tell you my thoughts
I will write them down for you
Tomorrow they will be erased
What I have to say will all be gone
No trace of these words will ever remain

I would like you to know how much I love you
The pain in my chest when I think of you
The longing to be close to you
The desire of my heart

But it can never be
It will never be
All that will remain
Is a blank page

With no words typed
Or written
No trace of any words
At all

https://dailypost.wordpress.com/prompts/trace/

Oblivion

Faces and eyes and smiles 

And voices and scents and kisses

Faded into a dark oblivion 

And I hope it stays that way 

All the Time

I close my eyes and dream of you 

I dream of all that we’ve been through 

And I know I never will and never have

Loved anyone as much as my heart cries out

Every day every hour every minute 

For you

Classic Quote of the Day

“What you do with disappointment 

Is just as important as what you do with success”

Boy George in the Voice AU

My Grandfather

When I was but a child
I would sit enraptured at the knee
Listening so very earnestly
To what my grandfather would say to me

So many stories he would share
Of life – how it was when he was young
I would hear tales about macaroni shells
And how they grow outside on trees

Stories about children growing up
Silly mistakes that they would make
And I knew to never take most things he said
Very seriously, because he might just be kidding me

For a sense of humour he did have
He could make me laugh when I was feeling sad
Lighten the air with only a smile or hug
And I do so miss him now very much

Not all his words were humorous jokes
For wise thoughts he would also share
Warning me that growing old
Is not for the faint-hearted, one must be strong

People fill our hearts with stories they tell
Infuse our vision with their lives and their love
And one day we find they have been taken from us
Leaving only memories as a faded note

That they lived and we loved them
For a short while they were alive as we are now –
Our own stories will touch younger hearts
As our hearts were touched when we were young

Grandpa

https://dailypost.wordpress.com/prompts/infuse/

Blue is the Warmest Color

The most painful words anyone who truly loves their partner can hear is that their partner’s love has died. That their partner may have a deep and lasting affection for them, but the love is gone.

And that is exactly what I heard in the French movie ‘Blue is the Warmest Color’. 

Over the duration of three hours I was drawn into the world of Adele and Emma. I witnessed the sexual awakening of Adele, where she realizes her attraction to *all things girl*, and In particular to blue-haired gap-toothed charismatic artist Emma. The love that develops between these two lovelies (and they really are!) pulled me in, and provided a front row seat to the agony and pleasure of same-sex relationships. (Perhaps too front row what with an extended seven-minute erotic scene which for this convent girl was slightly too out there, but okay. That’s just me). Where everything is simple, but also is not. And that love between two people is simply love. Irrespective of gender, there is a connection of souls, a meeting of mind and spirit.

My heart strings were pulled when sensing the pulling away of Emma from Adele (stoopid Lisa 😡). And how Adele self-sabotages in order to protect herself. A painful confrontation ensues, with the rejection of Adele in the harshest manner. And why did she have to take all the blame? 

The script is a showing of vulnerability, of love, of spirit, of commitment, and of heartbreak. It is life. In all it’s raw beauty and cruelty.

Leaving me with a strong desire to jump into the ending scene and make everything better. To kiss all the pain away. To bandaid the heart and wave a magic wand. 

Yup , there you have it, another love story that is not (looking at you LaLa Land and The Way We Were). 

And so it ends quite sadly with an Adele-in-warm-comforting-blue walking into the distance and away from me – the lowly viewer, at a time when I felt the need for comfort too.

He Believes in Me

Day after day 

And month after month

Year after year

Turning into decades 

Passing my life away 

Under trodden 

Unempowered 

Silenced 

Invisible

And then it happened 

We met

And straightaway 

He believed in me 

Love

I first 

Felt this feeling at the age of nineteen 

That spine-tingling knee-weakening 

Out of control spinning

Of hearts beating 

Eyes meeting 

Dreamy

Melting 

Comforting 

Love ❤️ 

I’ve Met Someone

I waited 

I wrote

I wept 

And who cares about that

It’s happened!

I’ve met someone 

Someone who sees my soul 

Who sees my smile 

Who sees me 

Oh glorious life 

Oh wondrous world 

My head is spinning 

My heart is flowing

My smile is smiling 

I’ve met someone!