
Every second
Every heartbeat
Every ticking of the clock
Counts down each hour
Until I stand upon
Eternity’s shore

Every second
Every heartbeat
Every ticking of the clock
Counts down each hour
Until I stand upon
Eternity’s shore
The worst punishment I faced was being hit across my face by an adult man when I was nine turning ten. More than once. Being hit by a man in anger. With a temper. It instilled a fear in me that has never gone away. Even now, if a man displays aggression or temper, I cannot be in that person’s company. A man is physically stronger than a woman. Cold hard fact that we cannot physically defend ourselves. If a man wants to physically hurt a woman, he generally is able to.
I have been captured
And I wonder if
I will ever be
Free again?

From depths of winter
Delicate petals flower
Spreading joy and warmth
So dreamy
So special
So romantic
So passionate
So breath-taking
So love
Beauty from youth
Eaten slowly away
Time leaves nothing
Living untouched or
Unfaded, devours all in
Its sight until all that
Remains are memories
Of what once was-
Littering life’s pathway
With faded scents of
A discarded rose
I will not obsess
Will not wait for you to say yes
Will live my life
Without a care
Knowing what will be will be
Finding the peace inside of me
I took a step
To change my life
I shopped for clothes
To change my style
I cut my hair
To free myself
I took a moment
To be brave
And though it did not
Go all my way
I’m proud of me
For being me
I forgive myself
For not knowing
All the words I could –
I should have said
It’s okay
If I said everything wrong
If I stuttered and stammered
And squirmed my way through
Every conversation we may have had
Could it still be possible
That you could be the
Change I need
Would it be possible
For you to be the
Change I need
Could you say yes?
If I said please
Would you say
Yes?
My open wound
Has sealed
The pain inside
Has healed
The scars
Remain
But I’m still
Sane
And you can’t hurt me
Anymore