I guarded my feelings
Fiercely against my chest
For I knew intuitively
That it was not my place to share
Not now, not yet
Instinctively I knew
When the time had come
To allow him into my life
And at that moment
We were both ready
To open our hearts
And share our lives
I ran as fast as I could
I ran away from here
I ran away from you
I ran away from me
Until my heart and legs
Caused me to stop
I could run no more
Falling to the ground
With nothing more to give
Nothing more to lose
All hope disappearing –
Like a snake
Slithering away
I closed my eyes
And prayed
Scents of jasmine fill
The air as we bid winter
Farewell, welcome spring
I’ve made mistakes
Perhaps a few
I hold regrets
My thoughts subdued
But when I look at you
I marvel at
Your strength of spirit
Shining through
One more day
To witness blue skies
Shining from heaven above
I close my eyes
Giving thanks for those
Who fill my life with love
Miniature landmarks from Legoland San Diego. Fun day out!
Darkness
On my shoulders
Darkness
Consuming
Darkness
Controlling
Darkness
Dictating
The heaviness
Weighs down
I kneel and
Through my prayer
Light shines
Learning
Yearning
Striving
Thriving
Living
Being
With each word, I
Become
Looking outside
And wanting more
More and more
Comparing
Desiring
Lusting
Needing.
Envy and
Strife
Wield their power
Force their might
Battle my soul
For my heart
My life.
Love
Joy and
Peace
Sound their song
And through their
Stillness
I am strong.
Yesterday I had an interesting experience. My son had a pupil-free day, which means he had a day off school. On a Monday, which means I had company. We went shopping. For a pokemon-go voucher. On our way back to the car, I spotted a dress on display, and decided to try it on. The sales assistant did a very good job, and persuaded me to try on two (discount off second purchase). Being protected by seven-day return policy I bought both. Yay, summer!
And then.
Third-degree from my son. How many dresses did I buy? How much did they cost? What about the clothes I wore last week? Those are for winter, I replied. But what about my summer clothes? Those are old season. He wears old season, what’s wrong with mine? Why did I buy something I don’t need. Wow, what is this all about, I eventually had to ask.
Turns out he’s been saving all his pocket money for a new game and is $30 short. And then horror of all horrors, I just walked into a store and bought not one, but two dresses I don’t even need!
Hmm. My husband’s two cents worth afterwards – I was being evaluated by my twelve-year old, and I failed!
