I loved
I loved with a pain that sliced with ice-sharpened knives
I loved with a love that haunted at night
That invaded my dreams and nightmares
Those eyes that penetrated my soul
That brought me to smiles and tears
Left me on whisper-white clouds
And pits of darkened coal
I loved with my very essence
I never stopped
I loved
And more than that
I love
If all we can do is love
Then let us love!
We are spirit
We are life
We are one
Love, life, spirit
Hold us up
Hold us high
Lift our eyes
Lift us up!
Take my hand and fly with me
Fly far, fly high
Love our days away
Hold my hand and run with me
Run fast, run far
Submit to love
You and me
Forever
Together
And always
Always
Lessons I’ve learnt:
Be interested in others
Remember and address others by name
Enthuse positivity
Always wear sun block
Drink water (lots)
Always attend six-monthly dental appointments
Wear heels
Embrace your sparkling personality
Because ladies, we all sparkle!
We absolutely do!
I have the sweetest friend
Who spreads her light
And shares her love
Unsparingly and
Joyfully
I love her smile
Her grace
Her heart
My loving friend
I love you
My heart is perfumed
With the sweetest scent of
God’s unfailing grace
His mercy has no end
And his kindness is forever
Basket of flowers
Being delivered today
Rush past my person
With no small delay
My heart wells up
My soul is touched
To have but a petal
In palm of hand clutched
My yearning is felt
A small gift breaks free
Released from its hold
Pink peony for me
I lurch through the crowd
Stem falls to the floor
My heart sings out loud
To my creator once more
He respected me enough to walk away when I asked him to. To not use and abuse me anymore. And that is a good thing. Past hurts are monuments of risk. On taking the chance of something better. Of being vulnerable and open and alive. Scars show we bleed. And scars show we heal.
Bleeding and healing go together. It is life. Without either we would be dead.
I don’t think I can anymore
Pretending happiness
Pretending success
Pretending joy
Pretending
Pretence
Rejection hurts
Even when I pretend it doesn’t
Even when I laugh it off
Brush my jacket clean
Have a bath
Drink some tea
Read lines of poetry
And still
In those quiet moments
In the deepest of hearts
I crave love
I crave belonging
I crave acceptance
And rejection
Hurts
Poems and Petals 