I’m feeling unsettled

Insecure it may seem

Past trauma has surfaced

A very bad dream.

Stuck in a limbo

No way through or out

If no escape I can find

I will scream, yell and shout!!

Don’t leave me please don’t leave me I pray

Your silence tortures me

I beg you to stay!

Oh please please please love me and this is my pain

Right here this child inside neglected, ignored

I was not good enough, not worth enough

I was never the one

I feel it now the rejection runs strong

It’s trapped inside it’s trapped within

Lodged under my skin.

Step outside to freedom

A small chance to take

Loose your hold on comfort

You will find the gold

Courage not forsaken

Only time will tell

Privilege awaits you

When you step outside your

Zone.

Icy winds rattled glass windows

Dogs howled misery at the relentless moon

My eyes grew heavy until eventually there

Was nothing left bar a tiny seed, very tiny send of

Hope

I chose my path and here I am

I chose each step I took

I shook my world right from its core

My days are now unseen

Where to now I do not know

But trust in faith I will

By faith we live each day

Surrounded by our hoping hearts

We trust that all would go our way

That dreams would light the dimming stars

Before we have a chance to blink

We fall and falter at the realm

My legs give way I feel so weak

I hope that you will understand

I give it all I tried my best

It was returned at their behest

My very all would never be enough

And so I turn myself away

There’s nothing more I have

To say.