A New Spring

And I am reminded of this with my irregular jumping heartbeat that is palpitating in my chest. My Monday trip to the doctor may have to be tomorrow instead.

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The Happiness Key

September 7, 2017Vonita 9 Comments

What is the key to happiness? A question presented to myself and others today.

It was interesting to hear the responses. Family, relationships, health, loving what you do, life moments etc.

I came home and asked my children the question. My daughter, without skipping a beat, said simply “family”. I prompted her on it. She said to me family keeps you safe and happy. It does indeed.

My son replied with ‘meditation’. I asked him what does he know about meditation? He replied by saying ‘nothing, but that’s what he learnt in his religion class at school’. Fair enough!

What is the key to my happiness? I have spent years in anxiety and depression. Perhaps it sounds cynical to say the key to my happiness is my SSRI medication.

And recently it is public speaking. Public speaking and poetry makes me happy.

As well as hot tea, reading, writing and my cosy bed. The simple things in life.

I Am Love

September 7, 2017Vonita 4 Comments

This morning I could hear my self-talk starting. That critical inner voice that is just so cruel and merciless. And more than that, I could feel my own self-talk.

I felt berated. Angry. Frustrated. Irritated.

Eventually, I confided in a friend. Someone got the better of me. Yes, my friend agreed, someone did get the better of you.

I decided to take some time out to be still. My past actions have all been my own. My decisions have all been made by myself. With my own motives, my own desires, my own uniqueness.

How then did someone get the better of me. They did not. The only thing getting the better of me is my own self-talk.

That cruel, merciless voice.

But that is not me. I was created with love. I was created in a moment of love (or so I’ve been told). I am love.