Against a naked sky
Satellites
Cut across the void
Oh! – my empty heart
If only truth be told
My love and depth of need –
Unending
Pain and endless tears
I cling to you as best I can
While looking to the stars
So anchored firm and sure
For all those
Times and ages past
Now nothing is the same
Lights and satellites –
Expose the hidden cast
It’s just a thin line that appears
So delicate and fine that you wonder if it’s even there
But as you shake your head and clear your eyes
A deeper longer darker crack begins to form
You cannot ignore it anymore
It cannot be wished away
It will not disappear
It’s broken.
Sometimes –
Beyond repair.
Massage my heart
I plead of thee!
Iron out those pleats
Of pain.
In all my desperation, Lord
I look above and
Search for thee.
I look towards blue skies above
And learn again of thy true love.
Though I may fail and stumble, crawl –
An outstretched hand will
Break my fall.
Whifts of a long lost scent
Aroused my senses.
We were there, you and I –
In an all too brief
Moment.
I breathed you in without
Thinking and only feeling.
With nostalgia and an
Inexplicable longing
I breathe you out.
I remember
Being so young of age I could count
My years on one of my hands
My teacher was gone for the day
So we joined our classmates next door
My teacher was gone
My safety net for a day
I counted the minutes tick by
I ran out of fingers
And then
I ran
Out of hands.
I’m trying my best
I’m shutting my mind
I’m reading a book
I’m eating sweet cake.
Anything to qualm
These pesky annoying sweet
Butterflies
Flying
Flapping
Flickering
Inside of me.
An uninvited
Stranger
Stealthily tiptoed
Across my
Unsuspecting
Vision.
I’m tormented.
And so the pain I suffered lifetimes ago
Buried far beneath ten layers of snow
Simmered and stewed and viciously grew
An explosion came as it threatened to do
The band was ripped and all laid bare
My pain is raw, love was never fair
Cloaked in a sheen of
Vulnerability.
Obscuring hidden scars unseen
Before a blinking eye –
Or shocked murmur could
Escape.
Her cloth was yanked aside
Exposed!
Not everything was lost.
For past the steaming horror
Of uninvited eyes
A tapestry of beauty
Expressions of life and colour and love and pain and strife
Quietly shyly
But with a growing confidence
Emerged.
I gave myself
For cheap slivers of silver
I sold myself
To the lowest bidder
I fought a weakness that is too
Strong
I battled a nature I could not
Quell
Before I could trip my own self up I simply –
I simply gave it all up
I simply and hopelessly
Fell.
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