By faith we live each day
Surrounded by our hoping hearts
We trust that all would go our way
That dreams would light the dimming stars
Before we have a chance to blink
We fall and falter at the realm
My legs give way I feel so weak
I hope that you will understand
I give it all I tried my best
It was returned at their behest
My very all would never be enough
And so I turn myself away
There’s nothing more I have
To say.
I felt that pain so deeply
A sear within my chest
I cried out for drops of water
The sun though lapped it all
Oh please can someone help me
Oh please don’t let me die!
But down the hole I falter
I lose the sight of sky
I’m surrounded by my demons
My head falls into hands
And so I wish for blindness
To unsee all the pain
Oh heal my heart I pray
Let the sun shine once again
The sun woke me up, but I failed to find the light insight. Dark shadowed all the corners I could not see past dawn or day. I curled up tight and hid away, oh please can someone wave a wand? I wish away this pain and grief, this never-ending stinking well.
I tried to write poetry –
A word or rhyme or
Rhythm or song
Though all was black and no words would play
Hidden in rafters and kept at bay
So I teased them, I cajoled, I pled
Please words, don’t leave me, I need you
I do
I need your comfort, your warmth, your truth
Eventually they heard they had no choice
But to tiptoe out and make themselves heard
Words you are my lover my friend my foe!
Wherever I am you follow, you go
Take my hand I offer it true
Words you are mine, all mine
You are!
Peace in the waters
Peace in the words
Peace in the worlds
That darken my thoughts
Peace only my child
This is my one wish
That throughout each day
And cool dreamy nights
That peace will be yours
A peaceful long life
There is so much to live for
So much to do
So much to strive for
So much for you
The world is your oyster
Cliche but it’s true!
“Money can’t buy happiness” they said
But in all that time of stress and strife
An income sure would help my life
So I lowered my head and did what I could
To gather some coins and reams of yarn
I knitted a scarf of grey and blue –
Money can’t buy happiness it’s true
Though it can pay rent and food and wool.
Oh that annoying rumbling
Grumbling greedy
Intoxicating feeling of
Infatuation is eating me
Alive
Why does your absence hurt so much
Why do your eyes flicker through my mind
Why is my life filled with your void
Oh, for just one moment in time!
Wrapped up in our love
With nowhere to run
I dream of you
I desire you
You and me
And
Us
My wish for 2019, happy new year everyone!
