Clearly I was not meant for you
Clearly you were not meant for me
Clearly we were not meant to be
But oh my love I loved you so
You stole my heart
I loved you so.
Clearly I was not meant for you
Clearly you were not meant for me
Clearly we were not meant to be
But oh my love I loved you so
You stole my heart
I loved you so.
She’s not gone it cannot be
Oh my mother don’t leave me
You birthed me loved me helped me grow
We argued fought but even so
You’re my mom you cannot go
From this realm, please say you won’t!
But now you’ve left I’m all alone
All alone I need my mom
I need my mom to care for me
I need my mom to help me be
She is gone I’m so alone.
She’s gone
Two words to break my world to crack the floor to rip the heart right out my chest.
She’s gone
Final. Absolute. It’s done.
I fall collapse into a heap I fall I roll into a ball.
She’s gone
No! It cannot be. And yet it is. I’m black I see black I hear black I’m lost within the void.
It’s so black my world is dead I cannot see. Nothing to hold. The emptiness devours me whole.
She’s gone.
I’m so grateful for your love
I’m so grateful for your hand
I’m so glad you came along
Just when all my hope had gone
I’m so grateful for our life
And to ever be your wife
Nineteen years we have been blessed
Nineteen years, sweet companionship
Covered in dust
I have no say
Muddy anchors weigh me down
As I’m tethered
Tethered
Tightened
To the ground –
A black mood sours my frown
Things are ending, I can’t explain
Once bright sparks scattered in the dark
Lost the fun and without the feels
This new year is dead to some
One day one step at a time
Voids will fill
They will
Somehow
In response to Cee’s Fun Foto Challenge
Where to from here?
I do not know, I cannot say
Allow the path to open up
Allow each day to make its way
When you arrive, you then will know
When you arrive, there next will be
Another path unknown to go
So take a breath and do not fear
Take a breath for this new year
Take a breath and you will see
Hope for all and liberty!
Yay for 2021
My poetry came back
In time to usher in a new dawn
To calm my nerves, to calm me down
My poetry came back
To caress my hair and stroke my face
And gently lull me down to sleep
My poetry came back
Those words that went astray
Nowhere to be found and none at bay
My poetry came back
For expression, for hope, for comfort
For joy
My poetry came back
It came back
Returned
To me.
I need a structure to my day
I need to know the words to say
I need a routine to the hours
I need the letters to write a prose
I need a frame I cannot cope
Without a structure or a rope
Something to hold on tight
Something to see me through the night
My mind is turmoiled I’m at sea
Floundering floundering
Please help me