Can I capture time? And preserve it for always. So it doesn’t escape or spoil or merely slip through my fingers. How I long for those days of yore, when children’s laughter filled the home and my heart. When days ahead seemed boundless and never ending. Oh this time is a cruel thing, and so it is. Time heals everything, and yet, it is time that snatches everything in its path as well. A greedy lustful enemy is time.
Author Vonita
Depression
As much as I try to escape it
It creeps up on me, you know
I have nowhere to hide
I have nowhere to go
I feel so helpless
There is no hope
Black covers all
I see no light
In the dark
I give up the
Fight.
Sinking
I am sinking
Further further further down
Darkness surrounds me
It’s all around
I’m trying to breath
My air is cut
Joy is dead
I have nothing left
Stop pulling!
Don’t make me drown
Under under underneath
I’m gone
Australia
Land of opportunity
Plains of the free
Australia my country
Sydney to sea
I look to your hills
Your echo through trees
I am blessed
Myself and family
That is All
So many nights
So many hours
Minutes
I wished to break through
I willed to reach you
So near yet so out
Of reach
Do you hear me?
Can you feel my
Love I offer you
Haters can hate
They will and they do
I can love
I will and I do
Happy Thanksgiving
I have a gift
A gift for you
I offer it
With love so true
Within my open palms I hold
Many prayers that overflow
For health and wealth and joy and peace
And light to follow where you go
All the best to you and yours xx
The Black Dog
The sun is rising
And yet it’s dark
The birds are singing
And still it’s stark
The sky is grey
When it should be blue
l feel I should be happy
But no, I’m like old glue
Yet life should be joyful
I gave so much
Yet the vacuum is imposing
I am my own crutch
The black dog is relentless
So insistent to be pattered
Another day has gone
It’s like it never mattered
(Anonymous Poet)
A New Start
Back in the day (Jan 2008) I started a new job. My first position in Sydney and on the bus trip in, I spent a moment in reflection. What were my dreams, my goals, my ambition. What did I want to achieve?
I wanted to make friends. I wanted to achieve, and to be noticed and to be acknowledged. I wanted to belong.
I met one of my best friends through that job (a friend of a wife of a colleague). I achieved inasmuch as I could. I belonged to a fair extent. And spent ten years in that position. Before I finally had the courage to admit that I had achieved everything I could, and it was time for change.
This past year has been that time of change. Leaving comfortable environments. Pushing myself. Discovering who I am and what I stand for. Being tested under adversity. How will I react? Will I crumble or will I rise. Do I have what it takes. Can I fight and face my fears.
Today I start again. And my focus has changed. It is not on being noticed and acknowledged and being ‘liked’. My focus is on giving. On creating and producing and achieving. On being the best I can be. To provide my strengths the room to grow, to strengthen, to shine. I’ve discovered talents I never knew I had. I’ve discovered creativity. I have tenacity. I have drive. I have passion.
Whatever may come, whatever time I have left, I will be the best version of myself that I can be.
Facing Fears
I will face my fears
Come what may
I will slay each demon
Appearing each day
I will be brave, I will be strong
I will sing the victor’s song!
I will go forth once night is done
And look towards the shining sun
I will catch each ray upon my blade
My trust, my hope will never fade!
To God Be Glory and
Amen
Where Are You?
I reach my hand to touch your face
And find your face not there
I long to trace your fingertips –
Your hands are nowhere near
I wish to look into your eyes
And meet your soul with mine
Your image haunts my every dream!
I want to shout and scream
Where are you, in this world?
All I have are thoughts
And sweet reminders of the times
We touched and loved and kissed
I hunger now for you, my love
The memories have to fill
That aching void that never goes
It stays with me through all.
