No! I cried
You never heard
No! I screamed
Your ears where deaf
I pen these words
To rescue me
Author Vonita
Standing Together
Side by Side
How many seasons ago
Would it be?
When we sat at the harbor
Under a midday sun
I hungered to reach out
And take your hand
Your hand in mine
I willed myself to dare
Knowing that if I did
It could not be undone
So I fought a battle
Allowed the moment to pass
And it did
The moment passed
I will never see you again
But I can still remember
The time we sat side by side
And I won a battle in my mind
Ignoring my heart for just a while
City Lights
Black Dog
The demons attack
My mind, I try and
Shake them off, but
They hold on tight
I cry for freedom, let
Me go, but they don’t
My sword is not strong
Enough to kill them
And so I live, I survive
With the demons in my
Mind
Dances with Wolves
Last night we re-watched the 1990 classic Dances With Wolves, featuring a much younger Kevin Costner. It has made me feel sad, with the thought running through my mind, there is just no happy ending. The first time I watched it was in 1991, my second last year of high school. I watched it with my mother and a couple of my school friends at a now closed cinema (Flora Centre). When I think back on it now, it feels like a different lifetime away.
Keep on thinking of the original caretakers of the land, Bushman of the Kalahari, Australian Aboriginals, and the ongoing destruction of our planet. The wildlife on near-extinction lists, the destruction of the oceans etc.
What world do our children have to look forward to?
Going Grey
Angels
For the past four weeks we have been cycling on Saturday mornings. My husband is a cyclist and my son is turning out to be an ace on a bike too. If I don’t join them and my daughter, I am resigned to staying at home alone (housework is not totally my thing).
Last week we stopped at the traffic light, on the sidewalk waiting to cross over. My son was a few millimeters too close to the road. I called out to him to move back as I was last in line, and he was at the front with pedestrians in between. As I was calling out, a bus came rushing past, it missed the front of his bicycle by an arm’s length. The driver hooted at him and I could feel the wind from the passing bus. My son’s one foot was clipped into the pedal so he was sort of attached to the bicycle. It was one of those moments that feel as though an angel was right there protecting my son. It still makes me shudder when I think of it.
Until.
Yesterday we went further than we should have. We went as far as my daughter and I could go, but then still had to make our way back. At one unknown point in the road we crossed over – my son and his dad ahead, my daughter and then myself (I’m always lagging behind). It was a slip road, and my daughter never crossed over directly, she was cycling diagonally over it. I was already on the other side. I thought to myself – she is on the road – and yelled out, get off the road! As I was calling out, I saw a bus appearing to be coming towards us. I watched my daughter continue cycling and make it to the side just as the bus hurtled past us, followed by another with neither seeming to have any indication of breaking.
My heart stopped in that moment. (Can’t even bear to think about it). I had to thank the Angel(s) again for keeping my family safe.
I woke up this morning with this moment in my head and had to say thanks once again. My children are safe. And they both so easily could not have been.






