I don’t feel so good
My heart is sore and my soul is
Bruised.
An empathy arises for the child within
I wrap my arms to protect her
Vulnerability
I feel lost
Floating along a turmoiled sea
Reaching for any flotsam passing by.
I am lost.
With only the blue sky to lead the way.
I don’t feel so good.
Feel the fear and do it anyway
It’s okay
If you fail or if you fall
Get right up, stand up tall
Learn the lessons
All you can
Learn to fly
And you will soar
Sky high
It’s out of my hands
There’s nothing I can do
But let myself go and slip
Into the gale force howling
Past my door.
I’ll let it bash me where it
Will.
My eyes are closed.
My hands are open.
It’s out of my control.
I believe in myself
My talents and my will
I believe in myself
My craft and my skill
I believe in my mind
My heart and my soul
I believe in myself
I can and I will
I won’t let me down
Through the night
Or the dawn
I will draw strength
From the deep endless well
Of courage and my grit
To live the best life
I was born to fulfill.
I took a risk and changed my world. I took a risk and stepped outside. I took a risk and all along, it seemed to be my honest prayer. The skies had cleared, the clouds were gone, for one brief time my heart felt strong. But just as soon as all was said, the clouds built up, so grey and dark. They threatened storms, they hung down low, I closed my eyes to make it go. The thunder stormed, the hailstones fell, all peace was gone, replaced by hell. But life is strange, we need the rain, if only to see for once the glorious bow. I took a risk and now it’s done. The door is closed, I must move on. There will be another, a door for me. There will be another, a golden key. So now dear friends, I lay my head, I will sleep for now, to gather strength. For strength I need to see ahead. I need all strength. I must be strong.
It’s scary, it sure is. When the rug is pulled from under your feet. I flounder with my flailing arms, grasping for an anchor. Who will catch me, who will care? I throw the question to the air. But this I know and this I trust. I will be lifted to a higher ground. I walked in courage, I walked with faith. And courage and faith will see me right.
Tender moments feed my
Soul.
Touch my skin.
Quench my
Desire.
Tender moments spark my
Love.
Draw me nigh.
Light my
Fire.
Our last time
Together
Left it’s rotten mark
All over my feminine flesh
My desire for you evaporated
With the departing of your
Well worn shoes.
Violent dripping blood
Angry
Furious
Exploding
Shouts and screams
To cowering ears –
Close your eyes
Lest you be scarred.
I’ve been reading about some truly beautiful role models over at Mum C’s blog. It is so uplifting to read about courageous young women, and their hopes and dreams.
As life goes by, we can forget about dreams and aspirations, just trying to pay the bills and raising kids and keeping all the juggled balls in the air.
But dreams keep us alive! They give us something to live for.
We as women have so much to offer this world. Compassion, empathy, nurturing and just a femininity that we can truly own.
So I endeavor to own it, dream on and live big. Because I can!
