He haunts me in my dreams. Visions of skin and eyes and smiles and touch. Moments of bliss. Flesh. The flesh so strong. Overruling any sane thought straining to be heard. He is close to me. When I close my eyes, and my dreams roam unrestrained. We are together and I love him and he loves me. And then I wake.
The coffee is cold.
I guarded my heart
For I knew
That if I allowed him in
I would grieve forever
It took him a mere glance
To turn the key
Look inside
And walk away
Leaving my heart unguarded –
Forever loving him
And my life in agony
He sent through a poem
Better than I could ever write
About smiles and kisses
Butterflies and wings
Peace and dreams
Flying me to lands of love
The words I hungered to hear
The words I ached to feel
And then I saw
The lines were old
They were written not
For me, they were presented
Second-hand
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How many seasons ago
Would it be?
When we sat at the harbor
Under a midday sun
I hungered to reach out
And take your hand
Your hand in mine
I willed myself to dare
Knowing that if I did
It could not be undone
So I fought a battle
Allowed the moment to pass
And it did
The moment passed
I will never see you again
But I can still remember
The time we sat side by side
And I won a battle in my mind
Ignoring my heart for just a while
I loved you
For all the wrong reasons
I loved you perhaps
For the very reason that
I couldn’t have you
You would never be mine
I loved you because
You were so different
To those I had loved before
I loved you mostly
Because my heart overruled
I love you now
If only because
My heart still does
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