My pain is a delicate globe, carefully held between my hands.
I will use it to channel energy, sharpen focus, and to change.
My sorrow is nudging me. Am I listening?
Speak! I am here, my eyes can see, my ears can hear. My soul can feel.
I hear you. I am not afraid.
Sadness open the way! Lead me and I will go.
Give me poetry when I start to drown
Into the abyss of my internal distress
Wrap me in words when rain soaks my
Humor until there is none left
My longing, my heartache, my desire
Be my water
Cleanse me from head to toe
I need you
I closed a door and opened a new one to
Magical unexplored worlds of bravery
My sick body holds my heart
Shattered into infinite pieces
I wish to be everywhere but find
I am nowhere
My heart that was tender and soft
Is in parts.
I know, I know, I know
That after my cravings have passed
That after your sweet divine kisses have faded
That after I no longer ache for you
Every single minute of every single day
That after I have no more words to write
After all this is past
I won’t want you
I tried to protect myself but in the process I thrust myself into an abyss and my cries now go unheard.
Was so beautiful and soft and tender and magical and sensual, followed by the deafening silence after and I don’t care about the ghosting, I want one more magical moment, it is a pain tearing through my flesh.
It wasn’t so much that I missed and needed and craved and desired you
It was more the emptiness I suffered
After I asked you to leave
And you obliged
I dreamt of my mother. She was alive – just been missing awhile. She came back, to a world that had changed.
My mother, why did you go? Leaving me young and alone? Facing the future, struggles unknown.
I dream and I pray. For my mother who cared. But after I wake, the dreams fade and die.
To all my friends feeling pain at the moment, near or far.
Memories flood my being
Filled with love
With thoughts of you
With thoughts of all
That we’ve been through
And all that’s left –
Dark lingering remains
Are as ghost kisses
Upon my tired cheek