A knife stabbed my heart
And without warning
Twisted and turned
Like a key turning
In a locked door
Threatening to
Unleash a wall
Of pain, I will
Feel the knife
Until it has no
Power over
Me
Tag pain
Lost
I wanted love
I let you in
I let you stay
Until I no longer
Could run away
And now the pain
The pain sears deep
And even though I loved, I lost
My tearing eyes refuse to weep
Desperation
My tears etch tracks
Down the sides of my face
Flowing unhindered
Unseen
My cries break the silence
Of the overcast day
Speaking of anguish
Unheard
My torment is ignored
And in all my sorrow
My pain
I feel like you don’t love me
And if I need to say that again
It feels as though
You don’t love me
Dark Despair
In deep despair
I hold myself
In blackened day
I cry to you
You do not hear
You do not care
And silently
I bear my pain
Hardened Heart
Perhaps
If I hurt enough
The pain will go away
Perhaps
If I cry enough
The tears will start to dry
Perhaps
If I allow myself
I will crown myself with beauty
Perhaps
If I never see you again
The song in my heart will return
Or perhaps
My heart will harden
And your power over me will be gone
Eyes of Deceipt
Tell me
Please tell me the truth
Of how eyes can look into my own
Melting my heart and caressing my skin
How do eyes reflect love and care
When there is nothing to reflect?
Tell me the truth
So I can use it as salt on my open wound
So that it would burn so deeply
That I would never, no never
Dare look into those eyes –
Eyes of deceipt
Ever again
Loving Another
What does it feel like
When your lover puts his arm around another
What does it feel like
When you see your lover kiss another
Take a breath
When the pain is scorched into your heart
For now you know
Your lover loves another
And you are left alone
Stranglehold
Is my heart allowed to break
When I have everything I need
Is my heart allowed to cry
When my blessings overflow
Are the tears allowed to fall
When I have all that I desired
Can I feel the taste of regret
For choosing a path so narrow
That somewhere, somehow
The path would close in on me
Leaving me with a struggle
To breathe
Band-Aid My Heart
My heart is drowning
In oceans of its own tears
It grabs a quick breath
Before sinking below the
Surface of my sorrow
My longing
My pain
My loss
Band-aid my heart
My heart that is broken
Apart
Denial
I blink back the tears
As the stinging starts
From inside me I can feel
My eyes redden as pools
Of water well up
And start to overflow
I swallow and try to deny
The pain inside of me
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