I wish I had the power
To be at peace today
I wish I’d never ever
Invited you to stay
I wish I’d never opened the
Door into my heart
For now my pain has surfaced –
It’s contents on display
Oh how I wish for love
A love so deep and true
Oh how I wish for love
How I wish for
You.
My emptiness is a step in space
I’m floating without anchor
Into the darkness of the void
I wish for you my love
Thar you may grab my hand
Yanking me back onto
You.
Alone, as I am, my heart sinks
I stopped looking
And for a brief moment
You found me.
If I stop searching
Looking
Desiring
Perhaps for a longer moment
I will be found?
Was so beautiful and soft and tender and magical and sensual, followed by the deafening silence after and I don’t care about the ghosting, I want one more magical moment, it is a pain tearing through my flesh.
Memories filter back into my mind
Those sweet caresses stolen over time
Your hands exploring every subtle curve –
For brief moments we melted into one.
You have slipped away, but I still can
Remember.
Is our friendship really over
Is it time to say goodbye?
Will I never hear your voice
And will I never see your eyes
Why does my heart
Still ache unceasing
Even when my mind commands
To let you go
I think on you
I think of you
I wonder where you are
Tonight
My heart still loves you
My soul will love you
My body craves to be
Wherever you could be
Tonight
There is a journey I’m walking
Walking alone
The path is marked out
To futures unknown
Long distance between us
Stretches ahead
The hours that separate
I patiently tread
I wish I knew
I wish I could tell
Or explain
Or understand
Why I do the things I do
Why I drive without a belt
Or sail a wretched sea
I wonder how
I wonder why
There is an empty space
Inside of me
Where is the love?
Where is content
Where is the peace
I hunger for
I do not know
I cannot say
There is no reveal
On why I drive
Without a belt
I know the danger
I know the price
I count the cost
And yet I still
Remain unmoved
Unchanged
Unchained
A rudderless ship
In a stormy sea
All I know
Is all I have
That I am me
Now and
Possibly
For eternity
If only you knew
The passion that rages within
The yearnings that raise their voice
Offering no escape
I want to run
I want to fly
I want to be free
If only you knew
The struggles within my heart
The beating as it raises its tempo
Urging me along
To move
To go
To be
If only you knew
What moves me
What causes my heart to skip its beat
What makes me feel alive
To live
To breathe
To love
If only you knew
I saw you and wanted to say hello
But instead I looked the other way
I longed for you to greet me by name
But all we did was pass each other by
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