Tenacity

November 28, 2016Vonita 11 Comments

Sometimes one is needing tenacity to get through what one needs to get through in life. Such example for me this morning. I failed at something. I had to solve a few problems, and I solved none. In short, I failed. Again. I burst into tears. But fortunately for me, I’m used to failure. And picking myself up again. Because it’s boring and tired on the floor.

So this afternoon and evening I solved all the problems. I could and I did. It might be too little, too late, but for me, I have closure. I can say I can do something. Because I could and I did. My tears have dried. I am feeling happy (as much as).

And I can say this for myself. I have tenacity.

Feeling Pain

November 23, 2016November 23, 2016Vonita 5 Comments

It took three weeks to stop feeling pain when breastfeeding my firstborn. It was so clear in my mind, he was born on a Friday, and the Friday three weeks after I had no pain. After that it was smooth sailing. One of the best feelings for a woman is breastfeeding. But only after the initial pain has passed.

Currently I am feeling pain. It has been a pain for two months and counting. An emotional pain. It appears in my mind at least every day. One day it will pass. And then I will be on the other side. There will be no more pain. But today, it is still there.

Waiting to be healed. Waiting to reach the other side.

Life Experience

November 8, 2016November 8, 2016Vonita 9 Comments

Been there.

Done that.

Got the ten amazing t-shirts.

(That no longer fit).

Same Old

November 6, 2016Vonita 9 Comments

I’ve been stuck in the same old energy for many years. Many years of dreaming, wishing, praying, wanting. It is getting old. I need to change. I need a change. I need to heal. But how? Where to even start?