A despicable you
Can never know
How much hurt
You’ve caused my soul
I will not share
I will not tell
You have no right
No right to me at all
Tag heartache
Simple Desire
Everything I wanted
My every dream came true
I wanted but for nothing
Yet desired still for you
I simply didn’t care
Or closed my mind to know
How much better off I am
Without you in my life
Vulnerable
I pretend to never care
That your silence overpowers
Me, a constant dull ache
I wish you knew
I wish you cared
I wish you’d love
Me, once again.
Splintered
If it was only a single splinter that had
Lodged inside my tender flesh
I might have endured the pain
A billion splinters have stopped me dead
Gingerly I remove them
One by delicate one
So that I can live again
A Coldness
I accelerated as fast as I could. I needed to get to him before it was too late. The thick heavy gates could be closed and there would be no way in. I sat at the wheel and urged myself to go faster. Faster! After a lifetime had passed, I pulled up at the entrance. He was there! I ran to him and pleaded. I’m so sorry for anything I may have done. Please forgive me. Please love me. All shreds of dignity vanished along with the day as I presented myself to him. With a coldness that pained me more than any scolding could ever do, he told me to leave and never return. It’s over.
Over.
Heartache
for you
for our friendship
for love
for what cannot be
for memories
for desire
for wanting to be with you
for your lack of care
Agony
I guarded my heart
For I knew
That if I allowed him in
I would grieve forever
It took him a mere glance
To turn the key
Look inside
And walk away
Leaving my heart unguarded –
Forever loving him
And my life in agony
Calloused
Scars zigzag across my heart
While another stretches across the surface –
Just one more brush painting shadows
Upon a worn calloused slate
I Remember
Memories filter back into my mind
Those sweet caresses stolen over time
Your hands exploring every subtle curve –
For brief moments we melted into one.
You have slipped away, but I still can
Remember.
Missing You
Is our friendship really over
Is it time to say goodbye?
Will I never hear your voice
And will I never see your eyes
Why does my heart
Still ache unceasing
Even when my mind commands
To let you go
I think on you
I think of you
I wonder where you are
Tonight
My heart still loves you
My soul will love you
My body craves to be
Wherever you could be
Tonight
