I love you my darling
I love you my sweet
I need you to hold me
I need you to sweep –
To sweep me forever
In your hidden charms
To hold me my darling
In your loving arms
I know it’s not easy
I push those away
That dare to tread closely
Or otherwise stray
Away from my touch
Away from my words
But love me my darling
Forever I’m yours
Against a naked sky
Satellites
Cut across the void
Oh! – my empty heart
If only truth be told
My love and depth of need –
Unending
Pain and endless tears
I cling to you as best I can
While looking to the stars
So anchored firm and sure
For all those
Times and ages past
Now nothing is the same
Lights and satellites –
Expose the hidden cast
A despicable you
Can never know
How much hurt
You’ve caused my soul
I will not share
I will not tell
You have no right
No right to me at all
Everything I wanted
My every dream came true
I wanted but for nothing
Yet desired still for you
I simply didn’t care
Or closed my mind to know
How much better off I am
Without you in my life
I pretend to never care
That your silence overpowers
Me, a constant dull ache
I wish you knew
I wish you cared
I wish you’d love
Me, once again.
If it was only a single splinter that had
Lodged inside my tender flesh
I might have endured the pain
A billion splinters have stopped me dead
Gingerly I remove them
One by delicate one
So that I can live again
I accelerated as fast as I could. I needed to get to him before it was too late. The thick heavy gates could be closed and there would be no way in. I sat at the wheel and urged myself to go faster. Faster! After a lifetime had passed, I pulled up at the entrance. He was there! I ran to him and pleaded. I’m so sorry for anything I may have done. Please forgive me. Please love me. All shreds of dignity vanished along with the day as I presented myself to him. With a coldness that pained me more than any scolding could ever do, he told me to leave and never return. It’s over.
Over.
for you
for our friendship
for love
for what cannot be
for memories
for desire
for wanting to be with you
for your lack of care
I guarded my heart
For I knew
That if I allowed him in
I would grieve forever
It took him a mere glance
To turn the key
Look inside
And walk away
Leaving my heart unguarded –
Forever loving him
And my life in agony
Scars zigzag across my heart
While another stretches across the surface –
Just one more brush painting shadows
Upon a worn calloused slate
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