Dove

October 2, 2018October 2, 2018Vonita 2 Comments

We bear the scars of hopes and

Dreams

When all our nights are filled with

Screams

Filled with love I watched you grow

I have no words as now you go

I wish you well, I wish you peace

I wish that all your pain will cease

Start the music, hear it play

While I fall down in desperate prayer

Farewell my dear, farewell my love

Here she comes, your heavenly

Dove.

In Memory

October 1, 2018October 2, 2018Vonita 11 Comments

There were times I loved you

There were times I feared

There were times I knew to quickly

Disappear

There were tears and smiles and hugs

And joy

There were all the gifts you bought to share

You were my dad, the father I knew

And now you are gone, my sorrow is strong

I remember your hugs, your voice and your

Care

I am your daughter, your flesh and your

Song.

Vapor

September 13, 2018Vonita 3 Comments

A few short breaths

Here on earth

Before our life is past

Time flies swiftly

Vaporizing

Make each moment last

Nightmare

July 4, 2018Vonita Leave a comment

My chest is constricting so much that I cannot breath. My heart is freezing like the water turning to ice on a mid-winters morn. For a few random breaths I was as happy as I would ever be and I had faith in the realm in which I was held.

Tomorrow I find out my fate. Will I be gone or will I live another day?

To survive the night is a bitter torment and my flesh writhes in agony. Is there anywhere else I can be?

I fear not. The demons of the night are here to torment. When I fall asleep my dreams are nightmares. I wake to only find another one awaits.

To My Mother

April 19, 2018Vonita 23 Comments

I see you in my dreams

I hear you in my mind

I feel you in my heart

I remember the very night

You flew from the land

And from my life

I am married now, Ma

I have a beautiful boy

And a daughter who looks like you

You are a grandmother now, Ma

Your legacy to the world

Your purpose lives on

I live your lessons every day

In my heart and in my life

And all I have is one tiny message

From my heart to yours

After all this time and what has been

Your baby girl is okay

In memory of my mother

28 April 1951 – 19 April 1996

emotions

September 21, 2017September 21, 2017Vonita 11 Comments

emotions are gentle waves lapping the soft warm sand of a sun-kissed beach.

emotions are raging storms that toss the largest ships as if they were a child’s toy.

emotions are tiny bubbles that sparkle and effervesce as giggles that cannot be contained.

emotions are salty tears that drench our cheeks with their relentless downpour.

they are pastel shades of a mother’s love, that overwhelming poignancy of meeting her newborn babe.

emotions speak truth and tell the tallest lies.

they are dark and white, and grey and light.

they are all the colours of the rainbow, and the blackest dream in which to drown.

emotions are life and the only thing that emotions are not

Is death.

Grace for Today

April 30, 2017Vonita 2 Comments

It is a lesson once again to be thankful and grateful for our lives, and the air we breathe. We are alive! We breathe! Yay for that.

The birds outside are chirping, and the sun is rising. Grace for today, that is my prayer.

My mother left us too soon. It is strange how you can have a life, a home, everything around you as it is, and then suddenly you are no longer there. Just plucked from your life, and there you go, dead.

I sometimes think about the life my mother left behind. If she suddenly returned how everything has changed. Her home is no longer. Her children have married. She would be a grandmother. There is google. There are smartphones. Can you believe that 21 years there was no google?

The last time I saw my mother she was wearing a blue sweater I bought her. She was going on an overseas vacation with my father. We drove to the airport, hugged goodbye, and then she was gone. I was 21, soon to be 22.

On an airplane and out my life.