Unshackled

June 27, 2017Vonita 2 Comments

Blurred images clear

And I can focus on what is

Not what I want it to be

The illusion falls away

To present reality

And I am outside

Looking in

I am outside

Where a shining sun

Caresses skin

Where water falls

And birds fly

I am outside

I am naked

I am unashamed

I am vulnerable

I am unshackled

I am free.

Kaleidoscope Life

June 27, 2017Vonita 3 Comments

The seasons change
Like a kaleidoscope
Held loosely in the palm of a hand

Altering the landscape
Of the days we have survived,
And what are we to do?

Hold on for the journey
Because the past is no more
The secrets have all been shared

While there is breath in us
A mystery yet lies ahead
Take me from where I am

Alone and destitute, vision faltering
Lead me to the waters deep so I can
Dream my new life into being

Let the kaleidoscope of change
Reveal my next home
Waiting patiently for me to arrive.

Porcelain

June 26, 2017Vonita 1 Comment

Your eyes are as the deepest ocean

Reflecting all that lies within

I know not what your stories tell

But I wish to enter in

To touch your soul

And tend your wounds

To heal your living hell

Your image is a porcelain doll

A fragile, precious thing

So I will hold you gently close

Allow naught but joy to sing

Still your eyes look back at me

Your life

Your pain

Your strife.

Walking Away

June 26, 2017June 26, 2017Vonita 6 Comments

I loved

Every day that we were together

I loved

Our intimacy, our life, our love

And as I walk away

I will remember your voice

I will cherish your heart

And will all respect,

I will never forget.

Growing Stronger

June 26, 2017Vonita 10 Comments

On Friday I encountered two situations that would have triggered meltdowns. Not one meltdown, but I would have gone straight from one into another. Things that happened that are my trigger points for sure. Those situations – a comment from someone, a fear of missing out, of rejection, of abandonment came rushing to the fore.

But I am healed and healing. If I ever wondered if I needed to be on medication, now I can testify how much it has helped. I was able to acknowledge those situations, identify that they are trigger points for me, that they would have had power over me in the previous days, and set them aside. Continue with my day.

I have been reduced so many times in the past to tears. The trigger points that invoke a pain inside that shortcut any rational thought. I would be overcome. But on Friday I was not overcome. And it felt good. Empowering.

Every day I am growing stronger.