My mind tortures me
With memories of time shared –
Always in my heart
My mind tortures me
With memories of time shared –
Always in my heart
for you
for our friendship
for love
for what cannot be
for memories
for desire
for wanting to be with you
for your lack of care
Today was a day that I wish wasn’t
That I could take away
Make it disappear
I wish I hadn’t woken
From the dreams that entertained
From protective membranes
Keeping me from harm
But I woke up
To a life less lived
And though I tried to catch the dreams
They quickly vaporised
scorching heat wave broke
As the clouds cried victory –
earth sighed with relief
Loving
Fighting
Making up
Hugging
Passing each other by
Talking
Not talking
Recreating
Parenting
Ageing
Resisting
Accepting
Such is marriage
And life
I’m missing your gorgeous self because even though
You lie and scheme and ghost and charm
You are gorgeous and sometimes I could really do with a morsel of
Gorgeous
Than your weak charm,
Ghosting prowess,
See-through eyes,
Sweet little lies,
You.
Feelings are fickle. Moods and emotions are high-maintenance. I’ve started this year with a new resolution. To focus on growing. Learning and creating. So now when my pain points are pressed (salt in all my wounds), which happens often, I am acknowledging it, respecting the life within, and letting it go.
We have only so many days in our lives. Each passing day is one less to live. But for today, we are alive, we are breathing, we are aware. Peace be to you.
My one true crush is back in town
My hair is not done, my roots on display
My weight has increased, my wrinkles have grown
I think of his eyes, the depth of his blue
And see the echo in his child who is new
I cross the street, I’d rather be swayed
To not say hello, to not stop and greet
I cannot be trusted, my arms won’t behave
To not wrap around him, to hug and embrace
I’ll leave the past, dead as it is
And ignore the sound roaring –
Those pounding heart beats
I took some care and wrapped it around my salted wound, with love I tied it carefully, I dried the blood with the tears from my swollen eyes, and with patience I handed it over to time to complete the final touch.