I pretend to never care
That your silence overpowers
Me, a constant dull ache
I wish you knew
I wish you cared
I wish you’d love
Me, once again.
I pretend to never care
That your silence overpowers
Me, a constant dull ache
I wish you knew
I wish you cared
I wish you’d love
Me, once again.
Nothing to live for
Nothing to gain
Your sweet pleasure
Drives me insane.
I cut you out
I push you away
There’s no resistance
Nothing to say.
Touch me once
Again touch me twice
Broken I crumble
Your kiss – my every vice.
I feel the void that
Threatens to suck me into
Its dark nothingness

Around
Around and around and around
I spin
Faster
Faster faster faster faster
Spinning
Spinning spinning spinning spinning
Until earth takes control
Yanks me down
Glues me to the ground
And leaves me for dead
If it was only a single splinter that had
Lodged inside my tender flesh
I might have endured the pain
A billion splinters have stopped me dead
Gingerly I remove them
One by delicate one
So that I can live again
I will fight for myself
I will fight for my life
I will fight for my breath
That keeps me alive
I will fight for my home
I will fight for your love
And when I’m alone
I won’t fight but will
Pray.
There is no one to help me
There is no one to save
There is no one to turn to
When I feel myself crave
Temptations flow freely
They never give in
Seduce and entice me
To taste of the sin
Of flesh and sweet fantasy
The taunt of our lives
I will try and erase
All your cheap spoken lies.
Powerless to do what is right
Powerless to get strength from the light
Powerless to smile through my pain
Powerless to escape the cold rain
Powerless to stop my heart bleed
Powerless I fall to my knees
There is power in weakness
I have to believe.
I absolutely cannot be
In two places
Simultaneously
I wish I was there
I find myself here
Where I should be
So I lift my chin
I stand up straight
And I take my very next
Step.
I closed a door and opened a new one to
Magical unexplored worlds of bravery
Courage
Fortitude
My sick body holds my heart
Shattered into infinite pieces
I wish to be everywhere but find
I am nowhere
My heart that was tender and soft
Is in parts.