Vulnerable

I pretend to never care

That your silence overpowers

Me, a constant dull ache

I wish you knew

I wish you cared

I wish you’d love

Me, once again.

Vice

Nothing to live for

Nothing to gain

Your sweet pleasure

Drives me insane.

I cut you out

I push you away

There’s no resistance

Nothing to say.

Touch me once

Again touch me twice

Broken I crumble

Your kiss – my every vice.

Void

I feel the void that

Threatens to suck me into

Its dark nothingness

Out of Control

Around

Around and around and around

I spin

Faster

Faster faster faster faster

Spinning

Spinning spinning spinning spinning

Until earth takes control

Yanks me down

Glues me to the ground

And leaves me for dead

Splintered

If it was only a single splinter that had

Lodged inside my tender flesh

I might have endured the pain

A billion splinters have stopped me dead

Gingerly I remove them

One by delicate one

So that I can live again

Keep on Praying

I will fight for myself

I will fight for my life

I will fight for my breath

That keeps me alive

I will fight for my home

I will fight for your love

And when I’m alone

I won’t fight but will

Pray.

More Lies

There is no one to help me

There is no one to save

There is no one to turn to

When I feel myself crave

Temptations flow freely

They never give in

Seduce and entice me

To taste of the sin

Of flesh and sweet fantasy

The taunt of our lives

I will try and erase

All your cheap spoken lies.

 

 

 

 

 

Powerless

Powerless to do what is right

Powerless to get strength from the light

Powerless to smile through my pain

Powerless to escape the cold rain

Powerless to stop my heart bleed

Powerless I fall to my knees

There is power in weakness

I have to believe.

One Step Only

I absolutely cannot be

In two places

Simultaneously

I wish I was there

I find myself here

Where I should be

So I lift my chin

I stand up straight

And I take my very next

Step.

My Heart is in Parts

I closed a door and opened a new one to

Magical unexplored worlds of bravery

Courage

Fortitude

My sick body holds my heart

Shattered into infinite pieces

I wish to be everywhere but find

I am nowhere

My heart that was tender and soft

Is in parts.