I looked with envy
At the seducing images of
Cars
And yachts
Perfumes
Handbags
Shoes
Houses
Horses
Hair
Nails
Fashion
Gold and silver
Until my parched throat
Begged
For living
Water
I looked with envy
At the seducing images of
Cars
And yachts
Perfumes
Handbags
Shoes
Houses
Horses
Hair
Nails
Fashion
Gold and silver
Until my parched throat
Begged
For living
Water
I thought of how
I would never hear your voice again
I would never hear you tell me
You love me for one last time
I thought of how
Our hugs had all been hugged
Our words had all been shared
Our memories had all been made
And I wondered how long
Eternity could be

I see you in my dreams
I hear you in my mind
I feel you in my heart
I remember the very night
You flew from the land
And from my life
I am married now
I have a beautiful boy
And a daughter who looks like you
You are a grandmother now
Your legacy to the world
Your purpose lives on
I live your lessons every day
In my heart and in my life
And all I have is one tiny message
From my heart to yours
After all this time and what has been
Your baby girl is okay
There is a grace to be found
In the difficulty of each day
For without the struggle
There will never be
Victory
My soul seeks solace
In the gentle flowing river
Of my thoughts
To find a comfort
In a world of pain
My soul seeks solace
In the quiet gentle
Heart of me
I have a dream
To write until
My fingers are scratched
Until my eyes have cried
The last of my tears
To write until
My face aches with the
Smile of achievement
Until my words fly
From the source into
The world
Into hearts
Into minds
I have a dream
To touch
To love
To empower
To write
I turned to catch you
Watching me
I smiled
An opaque night lures me
Into its clutches
So there is company
For the nightmares that
Haunt
I met him
Under a snowing sky
And he challenged me
To a dance in his home town
A dance in Hungary
A dance in Budapest
I found my way to
His home town
To Hungary
To Budapest
I breathed it in
The paprika chicken
And the steaming spas
And public baths
I saw the river
And the trams
Buildings so old and
Gracious and
Hand-crafted
Hand-painted
Breathtaking
He took me dancing
In his hometown
Where locals played their
folk music
And locals danced
To their own private song
He was the
Biggest man
So light of foot
Comfortable
In his hometown
He led
And I simply
Followed
I fell in love with a
Preacher man
In his eyes I saw lust
And love and devotion and
Infatuation
He said
Visit me
I pondered his words
Through the day and every
Night
And so I moved myself to board
A flight with my folded
Clothes and flew
To a foreign land, a land of the
Smoke
That Thunders
Where lions roar and
Wild dogs roam
Where the sun beats on the
Naked earth
And hungry people greet with
Smiles
I kissed the ground, the warm
African soil
And allowed myself a kiss
From
Him
A kiss so sweet and tender
A single moment in a frozen time
He gave me a
Red woven cloth
Rich of fabric
And texture
And image
A keepsake
To remember him by