Heartbreak

The thing about parenting is that it is no longer about you. If is no longer about me. Or I. It is about someone else. Someone you may have given birth to, I’ve given birth to, I’ve raised and am responsible to see through to an adult.

My heart rejoiced with the birth of my daughter. I gave her a Rose for her middle name so she would have something she could keep from her mother her whole life. A rose that would never die.

And when your child breaks your heart, all you can do is focus on your child. It is not about you. It is not about me.

How ironic that it would be that my best plans came to naught. That my beautiful daughter who is perfect in every way insists that she is my son. How to cope with knowing that my beautiful Rose is still my child, but no longer my daughter? I don’t know how to cope with it. I don’t know how to parent it.

All I know is that, it’s not about me. And yet, even though knowing this, my heart is still utterly broken.

7 thoughts on “Heartbreak

  1. The love that we have for our children conquers all else (no matter how difficult to understand or accept), there is just no other love or bond that comes close. Your child is your child whether a girl or a boy. And actually, all flowers have the characteristics of both male and female. So she or he will always be your beautiful rose.

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  2. It’s difficult. I’m sure. I think my only answer is “Love them anyways.” It’s still your child. I love this song by Martina McBride. I think it will answer a lot of your questions.

    Also, I don’t know if you know the blogger JoyRoses? But comment and ask for her wordPress email. I think she could give you some awesome advice to help you deal.

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