Help On Hand

For the past year, I have been on a very light medication for depression. I started as an experiment to see whether changes – if any – would occur.

For years I had been subject to the condition of my mind. It seemed to have complete power over me – I was on a down hill roller coaster that never went up.

Sure I would have better days and could still enjoy a sense of humor at times, but on the whole, I would often be obsessing over life in general and writing poetry, a lot of poetry.

In the past year, my life has had a complete makeover. I am studying graphic design, a course which I would never have considered doing previously, and to my amazement I really love it.

I joined Toastmasters and spoke in front of a room-filled audience.

And. After never believing I would ever find another job, or thinking I was even worthy of same, I am in a new job. That I found on my own, in a completely new industry, with a clean fresh slate.

Today I find myself in Japan. A couple of days into my trip, I decided to stop my medication. Because who needs it when on holiday? And before I knew it, my mind starting obsessing. I know the feeling well. Being pulled back inside my mind to where there is darkness, anxiety and fear. To a place where there is no light at all, and happiness is an elusion. Within a couple more days my poetry came back. This was a sure sign for me. Poetry is my outlet from mental chains.

I am so glad to know this condition is not cast in stone. I don’t need to live there anymore. I can be totally present and enjoy and appreciate each moment.

If it takes medication in order to do this, I am so thankful that there is indeed help on hand.

16 thoughts on “Help On Hand

  1. I cannot thank you enough for such a great testimonial to the powerful help available for depression by way of appropriate medication, Vonita. As a therapist, I see clients who struggle like you, but they resist medication because they feel it’s a stigma; they’re afraid they will become addicted; they think their faith in God should be enough. The truth is, as we learn more about the “feel-good” chemicals in the body, we are finding more and more evidence that serotonin, for instance, is made mainly in the gut and not the brain. So good digestive health is important, and if for whatever reason the gut is not producing serotonin, the best bet is medication. I’m so glad it’s made such an amazing difference for you.

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    1. Thank you, I was skeptical in the beginning, but can really testify of the difference it has made. I still have low days though now it is reassuring to know that it will soon lift xx

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  2. I’m all for the med’s Vonita, we have our ups and downs, but it’s so reassuring that the tablets do actually help, and really help us with our quality of life. And it looks like you’re having a fun time in Japan.

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